End of sorrow part three

Andrew took out his key and unlocked the door.  He felt a sence of euphoria at first. he had not had this much fun in a long time.  He forgotten how to laugh. It just kind of came back to him. 

Then the euphoria did ware off. He felt sad. He felt Like he had beteayed leane. He felt worse then he had before.  He checked his phone. He looked over the picture of himself and abby. They were so happy.  

She was so mischivous so playful. She was silly . he started to chuckle. He remembered what she had said.he did remember how he happy he was.he started to be ok. 

Abby had set the picture of them on her phone.  She looked at it frequently.  She beleved that that night was the beginning for them. 

The next day he checked his Facebook . he saw a comment from his mom. “I had forgotten what your smiling look like. It is nice to see it. ” she said. He got a private mesege from his mom. “Andrew who is this abbygail?  ” she asked.

He smirked. “Hi mom. Abby is my next door neighbor. She is a friend of myine. She is really sweet.  She is a belever but she is a penticoastal. I try not to hold that against her. “He said. 

He got a mesege back from his mom. “Well she seams really nice. She seams to care about you. I want to meet her. ” she said. 

In the afternoon abby knocked on his door. He opened the door.  “Hi ab!”he said.  “You need to get ready. You look fine if you want to ware that! “She told him. He was taken aback.  

“Where are we going?  ” he asked. “Newsboys concert. ” she said ” i remember hearing about them. Tery watkins dial the truth ministry had a lot to say about them. They are christian rock.i dont asociate with ccm.”he told her. 

“I am not going alone. Your coming. You can bring a david cloud book exposing ccm. You can zone out. Your comming. ” she declared.  “I am not wining this one am i? “He asked. “Do you want to? “She asked.”no i dont. I will come.  “He said she smiled. 

“Seriously. You read dial the truth ministry?  Terry watkins is a nut!”she said. “He makes some good points. “He said. She chuckled.

He got ready.  They went into her car. ” you know people are going going to talk!”he said. “Yes they are.” she said.

 Andy was not sure about this.  He felt very out if place. He figured that he was probably the only independent fundimental baptist at this concert. Most likly no one would recognize him. He imagined that abby was plastering there faces on Instagram and Facebook.  She seemed to love posting pictures on social media.  Everyone would know he was hear. 

The music was a bit loud. Abby seemed to know almost every song. She was very into it. She was not shy.she raised her hand.  She did not go out if her way to embarris andy. She described it as displaying abbyness. She definently did today.

He did not any of the songs.he did not get the apeal of ccm. It made no sense to him.he tried to keep an open mind. 

She look over at him. She would kinda check up on him.she ask him if he was ok. He said he was. 

The song God is not dead started a debate.  “Would not a revival bring people back to hyim singing not Christian rock?”he asked. “Why? Christian rock is sinply one way of expressing whats on there heart. Our generation is making our faith our own. Is what we doing any different from the rise of new songs that folowed the revival of john Wesley?  ” she asked. 

“Ccm to me is wordly. It is Christianizing wordly music!”he remarked. “Some acussed wesly of doing that. The organ was very controversial when it first entered the church.  ” she said. “I knew you were going to go there!” he said.

“There is nothing sacred about the okd hyims. Some are really good but they are not the only acceptable music!”she said. “Speaking yo yourselves in psalms hyims and spriutel songs” he said. “We dont know what the hyins paul refered to sounded like.i cant believe you went there.  “She said.he laughed.

He got more use to the music. It was not so bad. He enjoyed being with her.  He forgot what human interaction was like. 

After the concert they started to leave. “So are you sick of me or do you want to grab cofee?”she asked. “Yea absolutely.  That would be fun. ” he said. 

As they walked to the car,she realized that they were holding hands. She had no idea who started it. She was not sure if she should take her hand away from him  or not. She decided not to. It did make her a bit nervous.  

There hands parted when they got into the car.  “So you went to your first Christian rock concert and you did not get struck by lightning. “She said.  “Im stil trying to figure out how to explain it to pastor rolins and his wife. ” he said.

” you could say you were kidnaped by a psycotic penticoastal. ” she said.  “That is very believable. “He said. “Hey! You were were not suposed to agree.  “She said. 

At the cofee shop. “So are you trying to convert me to penticoastalsm?’he asked. “No although you as a penticoastal would be very intetesting. I imagibe you would still be you just with speaking in tounges. ” she said.

“Are you always going to drag me to penticoastal and evangelical events?”he asked. ” yes. We can do things you want to do. You have to plan it. I will go to your churches events or i.f.b friendly events but you have to plan it. I have to start to get ussed to Baptist any ways. “She said. 

“Because your eventually going to become a Baptist? ” he remarked. “Yes exactly.  “She answered.

“So what do is your end goal with draging me out of the house usualy kicking and screaming?” he asked. “I am not sure you want me to answer that. ” she said.  “Why?”he asked. 

“You might not like the answer.”she said. “Ok.”he said. “My end goal i guess is you and i married with kids. You pastoting a church and me being at your side. “She said. 

“Oh. ” he said. “I told you you might not like the answer. ” she said.  “I have to be honest with you. I dont plan to get married.  I figure i will be single all my life. ” he said.  

“You did not promise the lord that you would be single? “She asked. “No nothing like that. I just dont have the desire to be married any more. It is not really in me. “He said. 

“I am going to mary you andy. You have to know i am persistent.  My persistence usualy wins out in the end. ” she said. “I have notice that. Your a nice girl but i am just not interested in being maried at this point. I dont see me changing my mind on that. “He told her. 

“Well you do really know how to put a damper on a really good day.”she said. “i figured. i want to be honest.”he said. 

“you say that today. you may change your mind. rather its me or someone else you should be oppen.” she said.

she regteted saying me or someone else. she let her hurt talk. she wished she had not said that last line.  

“I just dont see that right now. “He said. “Ok. “She said. “I suspected that you were interested in me romantically. I would like to be friends but i cant be anything more.”he said. She thought to herself. “Cant or wont?” she would not say it out loud. 

The ride home was a bit tense. “Your upset with me?”he asked. “A little. You cant feel what you dont feel. It is wrong for me to ask you too. Your still young.  We made sense. I respect you and i respect your feelings. “She said. “Ok. ” he said. 

The car pulled in. “I am sorry. “He said.”i know. “She said. They parted ways. 

He checked his facebook. The pictures form the concert got a lot lot of coments. Poeple teased him for his skour. There was one picture where he had his arm around her. He did not remember doing that. He could not persue a relationship right now.  A part of him wished he could. 

End of part three 

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Panic attack part three

The greners had been coming to church for two mouths now. In that time jack said little to her. He wanted to . he hoped that his feelings for her would recede. They had not.  

He continued to write her notes. Some times he started writing them but never finished them. Some had just a few lines. Others had a couple of pages. Sometimes he had no idea why he wrote them. 

He prayed for her as well. He could not quite pray as intelligently as he would like to. He did the best that he could.  He knew that the holy sprit would take his feeble prayers and intercede to the  farther with gronings witch cannot be uttured.

He got butterflies in his stomich every time he saw her.he never understood why. Sometimes it drove him crazy.  

One sunday there was a church dinner. He was puting ketchup on potatoe. “Would you like some potatoes to go with that ketchup ?”kristin asked. “I like ketchup.  It is technicaly a vegetables!”he remarked. 

Kristen laughed. ” i gues. Technically. ” she said.he laughed. Then he realized that he was violating what he pledged to do. He tried to get away. He sat down.

He put his head down.he hoped that mrs grener or ashly had seen them talking.  He went to an empty seat far away from the greners. He sat down at the table. 

He started to eat. He did not notice that someone had sat across from him. “I take it you like ketchup?”Kristen asked. “I did not see you there. ” he said.

He was realy nervous. He was afraid he was doing something wrong.he felt like he was violating mrs grener’s wishes.  He was afraid he would not just be violating the wishes of a parrent . Worse he could impune the integrety of his father, the church,the bible college he graduated from and mayby even independent fundamental Baptist.  He did not want that. 

What he did not know is that ashly warned him at her request. It was not that mrs grener did not want him to speek to her. What really happened was that kristin got nervous. She just wanted to be left alone that day. It was not ment to be a life time quarantine. Ashly may have been a little harsher then mayby she needed to be. 

Kristin was shy. She was reserve. SHe had not always been an introvert but she is now.  She needed time to catch her breath. He saw it as almost a dear jack letter.  She was surprised that he had all but avoided her. 

“I do like kethup. Do you not like ketchup?”he asked her. “Oh i do. ON my french fries,burgers, hot dogs but on potatoes,eags and pancakes so much.”she said. “Pancakes! I had not thought about that one. I think i might try that one. ” he said 

“Oh no i have started something!”she said.  He laughed. “Despite my esentric use of condiments i am not that unusual.”he said. “I am not convinced. “She said. They laughed.

“Well Chrissy i gues i have some work to do convincing you. Excuse me Kristen.  ” he said. “I think we can get passed your eccentricities. A little odd is fine.”she said. “Thanks i think.  ” he said.  They laughed. 

After a while he went to get secconds. His fears had abated a bit.he went back to his chair. She was gone. It was like a farry tail without the happy ending.he looked aground the room. He saw Ashley and mrs grener. No Kristen. He found he was not really hungery any more. He tried to eat. He did not want to waste food. He eat it.

That was the first time he had ever talked to her. They mostly engaged in smal talk. He felt like he started to get a glimse into her personality.then she was gone . 

He wrote in her his journal,”chrissy i had a great time with you with you today. Your so funny and playfull. I love your humor. I was sad when i came back and you were gone. I suspect you have your reasons and i respect that. I miss you already.  I see what our mariege could be like. I dont feel like i can approach you. I will wait. I will try to be patcient. Its hard because i feel such a conection. I cant explane it. I love you chrissy.  I will wait. ” 

She wrote in her journal.  “Dearest jack,  i have tried to work up the courege to talk to you for weeks now. I could not do it. I Finaly was able to talk to you but my anxiety kicked in and i had to leave. I hope you can understand.it was good to finaly talk to. I am a little alarmed by your obsession with kethchup but thats ok. I liked being able to get to know you. I have been impressed with you.  I hope i can find a way to communicate that to you without frezing up. Until then i love you. What was it you called me chrisy. ” she said.  

End of part three. 

Next up 

Mrs grener invites people form the church to an open house at her place.everyone shows up except for jack. 

Sorow upon sorows part 4

Qonos

Camche 

Capital citty. 

Official residence of the chancelor

Sanjaya was the wife of mukuret. She had been a peasent.she was the second wife of mukuret.  His first wife was from a noble house. When his first wife failed to give him sons. She gave birth to two daughters. He divorced her.

Shortly after he became chancelor, he held a perade in his own hornor. He saw sanjaya. She was young and attractive. He asked her farther for permission to mary her. He seizef land from a minner adversary and gave her farher the land.

Sanjeya loved her husband. She knew him in a way no one else did. The loss of her son was devisating. Klingons had no tear ducts. Klingons did not cry. She was sad. 

At the same time she had a living daughter to care for. Her husband seamed alnost angery with her.like she lost the child on perpose. He seamed to think that the universe was conspiring against him. In his mind she was part of that plot.

They did not speak to eachother sence the incident occured.she tried. He would not have it. She feared that there mariege might be doomed. She did not want that.  She had little say. He was the chancelor.

Bridge 

U.s.s enterprise 

“From what i can the entire planet is walking on eagshells.” gioto remarked.  “I got that sense as well. The rihansu embasy staf are beibg careful. They are not leaving the compound unless they absolutly have to. The chancelor has been in a bad mood. His staf are woried about losing there jobs and there heads.”the romulin sub commander acting in kalera’s stead.

“I have heard the same thing from my friends,colleagues and other contacts on the surface. They have had the same thing. Things are tense on the surface.  “Terasha said 

“We are going to hornor there wishes.  Mukuret is the ligal head of the government on qonos. We will hornor klingon law and traidition.i am keeping the landing party confined to the senior staff .that includes you yeoman. ” ben norris said.

“I am not sure if this  is a privledge or not.”smith remarked.  “I am not either.  ” chief engineer hallak responded. 

“I do want however want full paticipation by the senior staff. ” the captain said.  The senior staf was  agreeable to that. They all knew the importence of this misson.  The federation wanted to shore up the alliance with the Klingons and the romulans. This could be an important step.

The captain had some time before the formal proclamation of a sate of mourning from the chancelor.  He decided to duck out for a moment and check on kalera. He was worried about her. 

He went to there quarters. He opened the door. Kalera was siting on the sofa in the living room. It was clear that she had been crying.she was half siting half laying down. She did not get up when he came in.

“Hey sweet heart. ” he said she looked up for a seccond. “Oh hi.”kalera said. “Lor i am going to have to beam down to qamche soon. I wanted to see you before i do. Are you ok? You seam upset. ” ben remarked. 

“I am fine ben. Really. Why are you bagering me on this?” she asked.”i dont meen to. Lori you are my wife and my best friend. I see you hurting and i want to help if i can.”Ben said.

“I apreciate your concern,i really do.please back off. “She said.  “Ok. Lori if you do want to talk i am hear for you. I love you. ” Ben told her. Then he left there qurters. The door closed behind him. 

Ben walked though the coridor.there was a storm cloud over him. He never really wanted to be a starship captain. He did want to be a husband. He wanted a family. He was a successful starship captain. He already had made a name for himself. He would hate to suceed at this and fail with her. He did not know how to help her. How can he be there for her if she did let him in. 

He came to the turbo lift. The door opened.  He went inside.he saw doctor mark piper. “Are you heading to the bridge? ” mark asked.”yes i am. “Ben said.

“Mark is everything ok with lori?”he asked. “Now ben you know i cant discuss that.  I am bound by doctor patcient confidentially.  I cant discuss it. “Dr piper said. ” is she healthy?” he asked. “Yes. She is fine. I can tell you that.  You will have to talk to her. ” piper said. 

“Thats just it mark.she wont talk to me. She hae totaly closed herself off to me. I have no idea why. ” he said.”i understand your frustration . i realy cant discuss it with you. “He said “ok.” he said.

The door opened, they entered the bridge.  “Liz you got a minute? “He asked.  “Of course. “She said. They went to the confrence room. 

“Liz,something is up with lori. She is despondent.  She has bairly left her qurters.she wont talk to me. We have been close prety much sence the first time she got on to the bridge.  We have had our rough patches. Not like this.she has totaly closed herself to me. I cant reach her. ” he said.

“Ben you cant force her to open up if she does not want to. You have to be patcient. Be there for her.be available.  She will talk to you when she is ready. ” liz said.

“It pains me to see her like this. “Ben said. “We all worked though things differently. Mayby this is her mothoud. I have a feeling she will turn to you.  I know where your coming from.  Try to see where she is coming from.  “Liz said. “Alright.i will try. “He said.

Bridge 

“Are we ready?” the captain said. “I believe so. ” bienka said. “Ok. Mr. Jenson you have the bridge. ” the captain said. 

Captain noris,commander weber, lt.commander giotto, chief engineer hallak, advisor xi,doctor piper, lt. Kolona,helm officer guiterez, navigator purit, spock,daner and Smith excited the bridge. The relief staf took over.

 Qonos 

The mood of thr citty square was somber. Klingons were usualy loud hyper and bombastic.  It was unlike Klingons.  They command staf went over to where a group of citizens and other off world v.i.ps. 

Then the chancelor and his entourage entered the pedestal.  His chief of staff got everyone’s attention.  “If i can have your attention. The chancelor of the empire.” the chief of staf said. 

“To those in attendence, to loyal citizens of the empire.  To members of diplomatic deligations from other worlds. Today i adress you with a heavy heart. My heart is indeed heavy. My son was the future of my house. He was part of the future of the empire.  He is gone foever. He cannot be returned to us nor to me. I am declaring a empire wide sate of mourning.  This mourning perioud will end when following a ceremony.  I have decided that his death was meaningless and empty.  It was without any point.there is no reason no lesson. Nothing can be learned. Good cannot cone from this. It is sinply bad. “He said. 

“His baby sister lives.this is a disgrace. This is cruel on the part of the multiverse. . it has acted defiently towards me so i will reciprocate.  Ancient klingon tradition provided that if a son died while a daughter lived, the daughter can be sacrificed. ” the chancelor declared.

Ben could not believe this. He did not like where this was going. Nor did he crew. “My daughter will die at the ceremony. “He said.even his own citizens were astonished. 

End of part four.