The wedding party part two 

Mat and amber always had a complex relationship.  Tracy had been sheltered.  When she started her first job,she was a fish out of water.  She felt out of place. Amber had been a breath of fresh air. Amber was not quite as sheltered but still tried to not be off the world. 

Amber tried to befriend tracy right away. She started to talk to her right away. Tracy was shy. Amber brought her out if her shell. 

At first,Tracy’s family was concerned about her being friends with a penticoastal. Tracy was not quite as separated as they were. They were concerned about what kind if influence she would have on there little girl. They invited her to supper. It was kind of a fact finding misson. 

Matt was opposed to even giving amber a chance.he dreaded the whole thing.  He had done extensive reserch on the charusnaric movement.  He was very opposed to anything to do with. He wanted his parents to just forbid tracy from associating with amber and be done with it. He trusted his  parent’s and decided to give her a chance  as they requested.  

Amber hit it off with there parents. Thet found her to be very polite. She showed evidence of speituel gowth. She was mature and responsible. 

Matt did not approve of her. He disliked the influence of penticostalism in the church. The charismatic movement waa beginning to creep into the i.v.b. he did not want to like amber. 

He tended to be standoifish to her.he usually greated her but that was about it. She became a frequent guest. After a while she became almost a member of the family. 

He tried to get his parent’s to have an amber free night once a week. They would not go for that. They really liked her. They liked the influence she had on tracy.

Mat and amber bately talked.even small talk was rare.  She had connected with everyone in the family except for Matt.  

“Matthew, you are traning to be a pastor. You appear to have that caling in your life. As a pastor you must have the heart of compassion. A pastor cannot show partially or play favorites. Amber is a sweet young lady. She has earned our trust. She has been a good friend to trace. I think that you should be nicer to her. ” his dad told her. 

Mat decided to put his objections aside. He wanted to honor his parents and there wishes. “You dont like me do you? “Amber once asked him. 

“You seam like a nice person.  I am certain you are a blood brought believer.  I am concerned about you hanging around tracy. I am woried that you could lead her away from the i.f.b.” he told her. 

“Your woried that i will try to turn her into a penticoastal?  “Amber asked. “I think you might influence her perhaps inadvertently.  “He answered.

“I respect your sister. I have no intention of trying to change your views. I reached out to a fellow belever. I realy like your family. I do not understand your antagonism.  “She said.

“I am alarmed by the spreading influence of penticostalism.  I believe we have to seperate from error. I believe penticoastalsm promotes error. “He said.

“You dont sugar coat things do you? “She asked. “With something like this never. ” he answered.”i dont want to turn teacy into a penticoastal.  She was lonely and isolated. I reached out. It is nice to talk to someone who does not sware every twenty seconds. I never thought your perents would adopt me.. I am glad they have.  ” she said. 

“My parents like you. I gues if they are ok with your friendship with trace i should be too. ” he said. 

“Can we agree to a cease fire? ” she asked. ” ok!” he answered. ” peace! ” she asked. She extended her hand and he shock it. 

They tried to be cordial.  He tried to at least be at peace with her. He slowly softened his stance towards her. Over time they went from barely speaking to eachother to becoming friends. She even made birthday cake for him. 

Tracy went off to a independent fundamental Baptist college. Anber went to a penticoastal colege. When amber came home there parents incisted she visited.  They kept in touch. Though she was disdent in geography she had a place in there heart.  Though he was reluctant to admit it she had a place in his heart.  He had a place in hers. 

She came though for the family when they needed her the most.  When there father died she stoped everything and flew to be with them.she did everything from make meals to just siting with them. They never forgot all she did.  

Matt was not someone who wore his heart on his sleeve.  He could be stoic. When she aeived back in town after his farther died,she hugged hin. He fully embraced her. After that,he no longer considered amber Tracy’s friend but his friend. They kept in touch after that.  He talked to her more then tracy had. 

“You have been missed!” he told her at dinner. He ment to conveigh the idea that she was missed by the family. She saw in his eyes that he missed her. 

She told him that she missed all of them. She knew that he understood that she missed him the most.  “Things have not been the same without yoy. Quiter but not the same!” he said.  “I will try not to be too loud. I dont want you to get sick of me. ” she told him. “I never get sick of you “he said. 

He did not realize right away that he had said it out load. He had not planned to say it audibly or had he.”i can get prety loud. Do you mean that?” she asked. 

“No anount of loudness will change how i feel about it. Dont push it though?” he said.she chuckled. “I wont. “She answered. 

“So how are you doing with all this?”she asked. “I am ok!”he answered. “How are you really?” she asked. “Slightly less then ok. There are constent reminders that dad is not with us.  He would be so excited. He would make so Manny jokes. He would probably tell steve he should have eloped.  He would forbid elsa and gracie from ever getting maried. Not a minute goes by that i dont think about him. Its hard to see tracy growing up. I am suposed to keep eveeything together. It weighs on me. ” he said. 

“Hey! You dont have to have it together with me. Condider me your emotional suport system.  I meen that. ” she said. “Thank you. I realy appreciate that. ” he said. “Please utilize me. “She pleaded with him. “I will!” he said. “Good!” she said.

After a while,they decided that it was time to head on. She was about to pay her part of the bill when he stoped her. “I got this!”he said.”are you sure?i should be paying for your meal. Your the one that has to put up with me for two houers. “She said.

“I had not considered that. ” he said.”your not going to sing are you?” he asked. “You dont like my singing? “She asked. “Your a fine singer. ” he said. “I might posibly sing and i might raise my hand.  “She said. “Woa! Wait a minute i draw the line at hand rasing. “He said. “Good luck with that. ” she said. 

He paid the bill. “Thank you. “She said. “No problem.  I am happy to do it. ” he told her. “You do know that this is going to be the longest two houers of your life. “She said.”i had a feeling that that was the case.” he said. 

He got the recept. They got up to leave. They went to the door and excited the restaurant.  He held the door for her. She thanked him. They walked to the car.

On the way home, she did sing along to the radio. He tried to not let it brother him. “How are you doing? “She asked. “Im ok. ” he said. “Just making sure. “She said in response. 

“Its good to see you. You drive me crazzy but i am glad to see you. I missed you. ” he told her. “I missed you. I am glad to see you. I enjoy driving you crazy. I dont intend to stop any time soon. ” she said.

“At least i know where you stand. “He said.”someone has to keep you on your toes. “She said. ” is that so?” he asked.  “It is” she said.”your very qalified for tour task. “He told her. He poked him lightly. They laughed. 

As the car drove back to the hometown,matt looked over at her.he smiled at her and she smiled back at him. She loved the way he looked at her. 

Despite her musical taste he realy enjoyed being with her. She loved talking to him. She wondered if he felt the same way she did about being with him.she was curious but not enough to ask. She was not sure he wanted to know. 

The car arived at the town. He drove to his mom’s house.  This was his childhood home.  “Thank you for picking me up. ” she told him. “I really was happy to do it.” he reaplied. “Its so good to see you. ” she said. “It is also good to see you.” he said. 

He parked the car in the driveway. In a way amber was a part of the family,his family. It was hard for him to admit it acept in his thoughts.  He knew how he felt.he was so glad that he was back. He knew that it would only be for a short time. He would enjoy her presence as long as she was hear. 

She was hear. He would savor the time she was hear. He would enjoy her time hear. He would not think about her leaving again.  

To be continued.  

The wedding party

Mat’s sister tracy was getting married.  There dad died a few years earlier. The job of giving away the bride fell to matt. It was hard for everyone in the family. There dad had been larger then life. His absence was felt. They were independent fundamental Baptist and they were confident that he was in the presence of the lord. The upcoming wedding made his absence felt even more. 

Everyone was excited for tracy. Mat felt that it was his responsibility to make sure that the wedding was everything she dreamed it to be. He felt that he was his dad’s stand in. He took that duty very seriously. He wanted tracy to have a wedding she would never forget.  

Matt had attended an independent baptist church. When his farther died unexpectedly, he took over the pastoral duties of the church. The church eventually voted him in as pastor. This kept him buisy. 

This week he took week off to get ready for the wedding.  An old pastor would aficiate. 

Friday 

Seven days before the wedding.  

“Hey! Steve wants me to come with her when he takes his parrents and grand parents out for dinner tomorrow.  Can you pick up amber at the airport? “Tracy asked. “Yea sure.  Is she going to be slain in the sprit on the ride back?” he asked. 

“I have no idea. With her you never can tell. ” tracy said. “That i know.  “He answered.  

Amber was tracy’s best friend .they met while they worked at a restaurant one summer. They had it off despite differences.  Tracy was an independent fundamental Baptist and amber was penticostal. She was the only other christian there. They had become close friends. 

Amber had been thriled when tracy asked her to be her maid of honor.  She moved to the west coast for colege. She went to work for the college after she graduated. 

Matt knew amber quite well. She had come over to there house quite frequently.  They had a cordial relationship. He did gril her on doctrinal isues from time to time. When there farther died,she fkew out for the funeral. She cooked meels and took care of the minute stuff. No one in the family would forget her kindness and attention.they made sure she knew how appreciative they were of her. 

“Thank you i really appreciate this.i am trying not to double book myself.it has not always worked out that way. Your a life savior. I will tell amber to be on her best behavior.  No prothetic uterence at least not in an unknown tounge. ” tracy said.”i guess that will have to suffice! ” he said. 

Saterday

6 days before the wedding. 

He drove to the airport.  He had a collection of hyms playing on the radio. He got a little nervous. He felt a little apprehensive.  

He parked and went inside. He saw the passengers arived. He saw her.she wore a pink t shirt with a gray skirt and flip flops. She had his luggage with her. She knew that matt was going to pick her up. 

There eyes met. She smilled at her and he smiled back. “Hi amber its good to see you!” he told her.she gave her a hug. She had no idea why she did that. That was not like her. She stoped and moved away. “Im sorry! “She said. He chuckled.  “Its fine!” he said. 

“So are you in a hury to get back or do you want to stop for lunch?” he asked. “Can we,i am starving. I gotthe cheapest airfare there is. I did not even get a package of penuts. “She said. 

“Yea of course. It will give us time to catch up. “He remarked. “I would like that.  “She answered. “Great!” he said. 

They went to the car. They got into the car. He started the car. “I have a cd in but you can turn on the radio if you want. “He said. “Thank you” she said. She put on the radio. She put on k love. 

“Ccm! I should have known. ” he said. “Yes. You should have. I know your not suportive of k love . you believe the old hymms are the only viable kind of music for the church.  I disagree with you on that.  “She told him. 

“This is a topic we dont agree on. I will let you play iy never the less. “He told her. She laughed. “Ok. I appreciate that. ” she said. 

They went to the restaurant.  “So how do you feel about our miss tracy being all grown up?” she asked. “Weird. Seams like yesterday she was a baby. I am happy for her. Steve is a good guy. He loves the lord and loves her. I have seen the lord working in both there lives. It is a little bitersweet. ” she said. “I figured.”she said.

“I guess it was only a matter of time before she got married and moved out of her own. It is stil hard. I am her big brother. It is my job to worry about her. ” he said. 

“It is a lot of responsibility.  “She said. “I appreciate you recognizing that. I dont mind doing it but it is a lot. I dont take it lightly.  I want to do right by my dad,my mom tracy and the whole family. ” he said.

“Your doing fine. It is all going to come together. It is not going to be a success.  ” she remarked. 

“I hope so. ” he said ” i know it will.it cant be easy with your dad gone!” she remarked. “I miss him.i feel his absence the closer we get to the weading day. ” he answered.  “How is your mom doing with all this? ” she asked. “She has not said anything. I know that it is hard for her. She has the same mixed feelings we all do. ” he said. “Understandable.  “She said.

“I gues dad not being hear is the elephant in the room.  Weare trying to make it special for Tracy.  This is the first lathen wedding.  ” he said.

“Well put me to work. Whatever you need, ask! I am totally at your disposal. ” she said. “You should not tell me that.i might overload you with all the stuff i dont want to do. ” he told her. “You can overload me. I dont mind. I am hear for you. ” she said. She ment to say im hear for your family. Could that have been what she ment to say?

“Thank you.  I really appreciate that.” he told her. “No problem. “She said. “The truth is that i could use a helper. I dont mind being overloaded but i would like to have someone to share the load with. ” he said. She knew that he was not only talking about the work load.she wanted to make sure he knew that she was wiling to share the emotional load as well.  

“I am so glad your hear. ” he said. “Thanks. So how have you been?” she asked. “Extremely buisy but good. The church keeps me buisy. The church is really growing. I am excited by all that is happening. How are you?” he asked. 

“Good. Between the flower shop and and working at the college.  I like the area but i miss my home town and area.  ” she said. “Have you considered moving back? ” he asked. “I love working at the college but yes i could see myself moving back. “She answered.  That answer made him smile. She took notice of that.

To be continued.

End of sorrow part five 

Andrew and leane had been childhood sweethearts.he was a year older then her. Her family attended his church when they were both in jr high. They moved due to her farther’s work. The two hit it off almost immediately.  They were both the smartest people in the church. Everyone suspected that they would be a couple. 

They eventually became a couple.they did ministry together. They seemed to be the perfect couple. Everyone predicated that they would do great things for the lord.  Manny were already writing there story before it happened. 

They went to the same Baptist bible college. They were kind of a pakege deal. They did sumer ministry together as well. Everyone in there home church expected them to get maried. There was no suprise when there engagement was announced.  

Then everyone was shocked when leane was killed in a car crash. It made no sense. Andrew had to put a brave front.  His dream were dashed.the unwritten story would never be written. 

It had all been so clear.he and leane would be maried. They would start churches and serve the lord together. He had stoped. He had put everything on hold. Those in the church let him.they felt it nedded time.  He was still active in the church. He was doing ministry. He felt he was good enough. His heart was not in it like it had been. It was different. He was in a holding paturn now. 

If things continue the way it was,he would continue to do what he had for these two years. He would stil be in the funk. He would be struck.no one might not notice. he looked fine. He seemed normal.  It was a new normal. It was realy not where he should be. He was not where he could be. 

Then abby showed up. The spitfire. She was not one to stand on ceremony.  She said how she felt. She called it like she saw it. She did not mence words. 

She was the daughter of a penticostal minister.  Her family went from a series of churches within the assambly of God. His farther started out as an assistant pastor and moved on to pastoring churches. 

She saw something in andrew almost right away.she came to like him. She wanted to start a romantic relationship but he resisted those overtures. She started to back off.she realized that if he was not in it,there was little point to it.

She was miserable. She saw this image of them together. That concert seemed to be coming together. Then it all came apart. It was a hard few days after that. 

She tried to avoid him. She did mostly. They said hi a couple of times. That was about it. 

On a saterday she saw him getting ready to leave. She changed out of her jeens and put on a skirt. She went over to him. 

“Going somewhere?” abby asked. “Oh yea. Church picnic day. I was hoping to avoid it but it sounds like everyone is going to be there. I gues i am going to go. I used to love to go when leane was around.  It was more her thing but i liked it. Now not so much. “He said.

Abby did not like it when he mentioned her. She understood why he did. She was a big part of his life. That was over. Abby wanted to play that role. She wanted to be mrs.dade. it seemed leane stil ocupied that role in absentia.

“Well have fun!”she said. “I will try.i hope it will go fast.  ” he said.”i am sure that you will have fun. “She said. “We will see. “He said. She left him. She headed inside. She started to open the door to her apartment.  She stoped.

She ran to him. “Wait. Andy!”she said. He put some stuf in the trunk. He closed the trunk.  She went over to him. He stoped what he had been doing.  

“Im going with you. I wish i had planed better. I would have made my chicken salid sandwitch. It is to die for. Mayby some orther time. ” she said. 

“Wait? Your comming?” he asked. “Yes i am. ” she said. He chuckled.”ok!” he said. They got in to the car. 

“Nervous?” abby asked. “A little. I did not know i was bringing a guest.the pictures you posted got quite a reaction. I was pummeled with questions for days. I am not sure what you will do. You are a bit unpredictable! “He said.

“You woried i will spontaneously become slain in the sprit? I will just start speaking in tounges or something? ” she asked. 

“I wasn’t.  Now i am. ” he admitted. She laughed. “I will try to be on my best behavior.  ” she said. “Try?” he asked. ” you know me. I promise i will not to embarrass you too bad. “She said. ” oh my! Ok!”he said. 

He nervously parked the car in the parking area.they got out. Everyone seemed suorised that he brought a friend. ” hi andy. Who is this? “Pastor Jason web asked.

“Pastor web this is abby. Abby this is pastor web. “He said. ” hi welcome . it is good to meet you.”the pastor said. “Thank you. It is good to meet you.” she said.

She helped him unload the truck. The pastors wife came over and introduced herself. “Hi im carla webb. Pastor web’s wife. “She said.”it is good to meet you. ” abby said. 

” we are glad that your hear.”carla said.  “It is good to be hear.”abby said. Everyone was really friendly. Then he saw his parrents and his siblings. It was time to introduce her to his family. He was not sure he was ready for that.

“Is this abby?” his mom asked. “This is! ” abby said. “It is good to finaly meet you. ” his farther said.”i am been looking forward to meeting you as well. ” she told them. 

Then another car pulled up. It was leane’s parrents.he had not considered that they would see him with someone else other then leane . everything happened so fast. One minute he got ready to leave. All of a sudden abby was riding shotgun on his way to church.

He got realy nervous. He got tense. He tried not to look uncomfortable. It was not easy. He tried to act normal. He moved away from there line of sight. 

Abby was enjoying herself. She liked interacting with people from his church. Perhaps one day her church. Usualy she planed everything out. She had a strategy. She had a move and counter moves.not this time. This time she was flying at the seat of her pants.she had acted totally on impulse.  She had no plan.

It happened so fast. All of a sudden she realized that she was in his car on the way to his church. There was no turning back. She was glad to be there. She was glad that she did not have the time to rethink it. 

The dinner was really good. After the men were playing horse shoes.Andrew’s mom went over to her. ” it is good to finaly meet you.i wondered when i would meet you.”mrs. Dade remarked. 

“I wondered the same thing. “Abby said.  “His dad and i really enjoyed looking over the pictures you posted.it was good to see him smile again.it has been a while.” she said. 

“I like his smile. He has a good one. ” she told him. “He does. So are you two an item?” his mom asked.  “Not yet. I would love to be. He is not ready. Well at least he does not think he is ready.  ” she said.

“I am glad you are in his life. He had totaly shut down. We were woried about him.we stil are. We want see him resume life again. “His mom told her. “I am realy glad to be in his life. “Abby said. 

After a while she saw a husband and wife she had not talk to yet. “Hi im abby. ” she said “hi im Clark.  This is my wife jacky. ” he said. “It is good to meet you. ” she said.

“So what bring you hear today? “Jacky asked. “I am a friend of Andrew’s.  I am his neighbor. “She said. ” oh.  What kind of friend?” Clark asked. “Just friends.  ” she said.

Andrew saw them talking to abby. Oh no he thought. He was not sure what to do. He went over to her. ” hi. ” Andrew said.  “We have had a pleasent conversation With this young lady. ” jacky said. 

“She is a nice lady.”andrew said. Abby noticed that andrw was realy tense. She did not know why. After a while they dispersed. 

Later abby asked one of mats sister who clark and jacky were. “Oh! You dont know ” anna said. “Know what?” abby asked. “They are leane’s parrents.” she said.

Abby had no idea.it did not occur to her that she would run into them.she hoped that she did not cause him trouble.her impulsiveness sonetimes got her into trouble. Perhaps she should have thought thus though. 

Later they said goodbye to everyone. They went to the car. ” look i am sorry.  I really did not plan today.   I never ment to cause friction for you. I dont akways think before i act. I enjoy being with you. After the newsboys concert i decided to give you some space. I went on a self imposed exile with you. I hated it. I just acted today.” she told him. 

“Its ok. I am glad you came. They were bound to meat you eventually. I suspected you were on A self imposed exile.  I was not sure what to do. ” he said. 

“Are you really glad i am hear? I was not a nuisance? ” she asked. “No not at all.  Am glad you came!  He said. “So are you sick of me ? Want to come to my church tonight?” she asked. He said ok. 

End of part five. 

End of sorrow part four

Andrew went home that night he felt tense. He felt strage. He felt a thousand different emotion. He went from happy to sad to regret to everything in between. He did not know what to do. He was very divided. 

Could he really move on? Could he forget leane. Did dating abby and mayby even marying her ment that he had to forget leane. He felt like he spent a life time with her. Even though she was gone, he had his memories.  Though he never maried her he felt like he had. If he maried abby, he would have to abandon all of it. Abby would be his wife. He wanted to hold on to his memories of leane. He could not if he maried her.

He was havily divided. He would keep turning in facebook. He kept staring at the pictures of him and abby. He was happy. Even at the Christian rock concert he was happy. He had found memories of that event. He had to turn off the screen. 

He ended up looking at a picture of him and leane. He looled at a photo album of them. It was going to leed into there early days of mariege. Od course that never happened. He felt so sad. He had to give that up as well. 

Abby went to her house. She was so sad. She was in love with him. She had been for a while. She had such a good day. She knew she had pushed so Manny of his buttons.  She realy cared about him. She had no idea what to do now. 

He was afraid to go to church the  next day. He knew he was going to be pummeled with questiones. He figured that he would be asked a milion questions even before he went to the newsboys concert.he would get more questions now. 

He knew that people cared about him. He kept to himself. He did not talk about his feelings but this was the church he had attended sense he was young. They watched him grow up. He wanted to figure this out on his own.

He wanted to figure this out all on his own. He had no idea how to do that. He considered playing hookie. He was teaching an adult high school and there was probably no one who could take over at such short notice. He would go. 

He saw his mom and dad as he went inside.”hi.” he said. “So when do we get to meet abby?” his mom asked.” i am not sure yet. ” he said.”we are looking froward to meeting her. ” his dad told him.

“Well we are just friends.  I am not sure it is going to materialize into anything.  “He said. 

“You dont like her as something more then feiends?”his mom asked.”i dont know. It seams like it is too soon. ” he said. ” we would love to meet her. ” his dad said.

He got a million questiones. From how he met her to does it see it leading to mariege. He did not say much. He dodged as much as he could but answered it a little bit. 

“Andy how was the concert?” pastor davis asked. “Not you too. It was good well the concert not so much.  I enjoyed the conpony. ” he said. 

“You dont to mourn foever. You are young.no one expects you to stay single foever. Its ok to move on. ” the pastor said. “I know that. I envision that one day i will date again. I can even imagine getting maried.  Not now not yet. “He said.

“You only dated leane?”he asked.”yes. I did not plan it that way. Before we knew it we had been a couple basicaly for six years.” he said 

“Are you ok if abby maries someone else? ” he asked.  “I would like to say no but it would brother me. I could probably ajust. ” andrew said. “I would consider that long and hard. ” he said.

He drove home after church.  Of course abby got home at the same time he did. She wore jeens not a skirt.  He did not know if there was any significance to her wardrobe choice. 

“Hello. ” he said “hi andy.did you get a thousand questiones? ” she asked. “And thensome. Did you?”andrew asked. “I did.they arw a bit disturbed that you dont believe in speaking in tounges. They are also disrurbed by your view on eternal secuity. By the way i believe in eternal secuity.” she said. 

“That’s good to know. Otherwise you and i would probably get into a heated debate. ” he told her.  “I could see that. “She said. 

“Well i should be getting inside. “He told her. “Alright. Have a good afternoon.  ” she said.  They went there seperate ways.they went inside there homes. 

He felt prety good most of the day. He loved teaching Sunday school. The sermon in the morning had been very good.  Now he felt agitated. Abby made him feel a thousand different things. 

She loved being with him.when she was with him she did not want to be any where else.now that he was gone she missed him.what was odd was that he was right there.  He was next door. 

She considered texting him.she considered asking him to join her outside. SHe did not do that.she decided that that was not a good idea. She stayed inside.  

She saw him leave for evening service. She waited for him to leave before she got in her car. Then when he was gone she went to her car. She headed off to her church. 

The service went good. He enjoyed the message.  The question about abby persisted.  People wondered when they would get to meet her. He dodged the questions mostly. He was uncomfortable with them but he hid that fact. 

After the service. “So did you talk to abby today?” his mom asked.”briefly. ” he answered.  “Planning any more ccm concerts?”his dad asked. “No i am not. ” he said. Of course he did not plan the last one. “You should bring her to some of our churches function.” she said. “She says she is willing to go. ” he said. “Invite her. Everyone wants to meet her. ” she said. “Perhaps i will. ” he said. 

Abby stayed after church.  She played basketball a bit. She talked to friends in the parking lot. She tried to avoid going home. She wanted to avoid seing him. 

She finaly headed home. She figured he would be long home by now. She just wanted a break. She wanted time to sort all this out. She drove slowly. She was in no hury to get home. She puled in to her drive way. His car was parked. She parked in her spot. 

She got out of the car. She walked to her apartment.  She got inside. She thought to herself that she had made it. She realized how silly she was. 

She was not sure how to proceed.  She really liked him. She wanted to one day marry him. He was clearly not interested right now. She was not sure if he would ever be. She was prety sure that he did not think that he would ever be ready.  She just wanted some time apart from him. 

Right now it looked like nothing was going to happen between those two. Things often changed. Perhaps it would hear. Time would tell. 

End of part four. 

“Panic attack ” part six 

Jack had wanted to be maried. He was not sure when he first decided that he wanted to be maried.  He had observed his parents.  They seamed to be closer today then they had ever been. 

He asked his mom about it once. She smilled. She said that it waa true. She was more in love with his farther today. She explaned to him that she knew him more now. They were more in love because they have let the other person more in there lives.  She said that love is a choice. You chose to love that person once but then you follow it up with smal chioces. 

 He asked his dad the same question. He did not even hesitate with his answer. “Yes!  I think i am more in love with your mom today then even a few days before.  Our relationship is more special today.” he said. 

 His parents had told him not to rush to find somone. Alow for God’s timing. Dont settle. Make sure that person is realy Gods will. Who you marry will impact everything else including future ministry.  He resolved not to rush ahead. 

That was not always easy. It ment waiting.  He figured he would meet someone at bible colege but that did not happen. He was tempted to rush ahead. He knew that whenever someone in scripture tried to rush ahead,it never turned out well. He waited. 

He graduated bible colege not meeting someone.he began to wounder if he would never meet someone.  Mayby he was called to be single. He really did not think that was the case. He knew he had to wait.he knew doing this Gods way was the best. His timing is always best. He was patcient even though it was the last thing he wanted to do. 

Then it all changed. The first time he saw Kristen, he got buterflies in his stomich. He did not fully understand it. He did not equate it with her being “the one”. The buterflies did not go away. 

He started to wonder if mayby she could be. When he was asked to back off he questoned it. For a while he thought that this was not the right time. Then he began to give up on her.

When her mom gave him permission to persue her, he felt free.  His sprit indicated that he was at liberty to persue her. While he never trusted his heart he did take account of everyrhing and concluded he could proceed.  The buterflies had never gone away. They were as strong as ever. 

“Hi there! ” he told her. She smiled. They went to the table. ” i am so glad you came.  ” she told him. “I am glad i came as well. ” he told her. 

“Will you give the blesing?”mrs grener asked jack. He said he would. He opened in prayer. There eyes met as he sat down. 

“Kristen cooked the ham. ” mrs grener asked. ” it is really good. ” he said. “You dont need kachup on anything ” kristin said “no i dont. ” he said. 

“So are you interested in being a pastor? ” mrs . grener asked. “I am. Right now i am really enjoying mentoring with my dad. My dad has let me done  a lot. I do want to pastor a church of my own. Right now i am realy happy hear. ” he said.

“We all enjoy your preaching and your Sunday school class. ” mrs grener said. “I learn a lot just in the preparation.  I enjoy preparing the surmons and lesson just as delivering them.”  he said 

“Have you always wanted to be a pastor? “Kristin asked. “Mostly! I went though a brief time i wanted to be a racecar driver. Even then i wanted to be a pastor at the same time. At a sumer camp right before my senior year i conmited myself to full time ministry. ” he said. 

“Was it a hard decison?” Kristin aaked. “Not when i finaly committed to it. I felt prompted for a while. When i did commit it was easy. “She said. 

After dinner. “Thank you so much for inviting me.” he said.”our pleasure.  We will have you over more i am sure. “Mrs. Grener said.”do you care to sit on the steps with me and talk?”she asked. “I would love to. “He said. They went outside and sat down. 

“I assume that my mom filled you in on everything.  ” she said.”she did. I am so sorry.  I had no idea. ” jack said. “As you can see the last few years have been very dificult. Are you alright with the rules mom satted?” Kristin asked. 

“I am . i respect you kristin. I will do whatever you need me to do. I understand that you need your space at times. I have no problem with that. ” he said.

“I had hope you would. I have some aditional stipulations . i really need you to agree to this.  ” she told him. 

” ok. What is it?” he asked her. “As my mom told you, i am prone to panic attacks and anxiety.  These attacks are many times unpredictable. They sometimes occur without warning.  When that happends, i wish to be alone. There are going to be times when i am going to rush out of the room. I would ask that you just let me go. I will catch up with you later. “She told him.

“Ok. I can do that. “He said. “I am sure as time goes on,we will develop a rhythm.  We will figure this out. For right now i would rather deal wih it alone. I know whats works.  I know what i need to do. “She told him. 

“I respect that.  I want you to be comfortible with me. I can ajust. “He said. “I am sory it has to be this way. I am high maintenance. “She said. 

“Its understandable.  You have been though things someone your age should not have to .i dont find you high maintenance.  ” he said.

“I was not always like this. I was bubbly.  I was very outgoing. I wish you could Meet that me. ” she said.”i cant believe that a bubbly outgoing person is not stil out there. Regardless it will all come together. “He said.

“What did mom tell you?” she asked. “Well she said that your dad was killed in a car acident. She said you were in a coma for a while and you had a dificult recovery time. “He said. 

“I remember getting hit. I woke up in a managed care facility. Mom and ash were at my side.  I had to relearn everything. I had to recover and mourn at the same time. “She said. 

“I cant imagine what that must have been like. “He said. “It was not easy. I had a really good suport system.  “She said. “You rose to the occasion.  “He said. “I tried. ” she said. ” so do you stil have pain?” he asked. “I do. Every day i have some level of pain. I can mostly bare it. I try to keep it quet. I try to be strong.  Ash and mom really wory about me. I dont want to further burden them. ” she said. 

He put his arm around her. She rested her head on her shoulder.  “Look i know that you have a really good suport system.  I would realy like to be a part of that suport syistom. I know you want to be brave and strong and you are brave. You dont have to be strong around me. Tell me how you are feeling. “He said.

“That is not easy for me. ” she told him. “I know. I can tell. I know i have to earn your trust. I understand your point of view. I respect it and i respect you. Please give me a chance. ” he said. “I will try. ” she said. 

“So where do you see yourself in five years?” she asked. “I would like to have started a church plant. Maybe pastoring an excisting church first. I would like to be married by then. Perhaps one child by then what about you?” he asked. 

“I would like to be married by then. A kid or two. I am open to be a pastor’s wife. I had not realy given it a lot of thought.now i am starting to. ” she told him. 

“Well i should be going. It is getting late. I had a good time today.”he told her.she smiled. “I did too. “She said.

He said good night to her mom. He thanked her again for his hospitality.  Kristin walked him to his car. “I have a good feeling about us kristin. ” he told her. “I do too. What is this kristin business? “She asked. “What do you meen?”he asked. “You usualy call me krissy. “She said.  ” i was not sure how you felt about it. “He said. “I am fine with it. ” she said. 

She hugged him. They said goodnight. He got into the car.she watched him drive off.

His family waa very curious how the night went. He hoped for time to process it. He knew that the whole family even the baby wanted to hear a full report on the dinner. He went inside. He was smiling.

 “How did things go”his mom asked.”it went very well. We are going to explore the posibility of courtship.  “He said. ” i suspected that that might be the case. “He said.he was excited. He knew that it would not be easy but he was excited to get to know her. 

End of part six. 

End of sorrow part three

Andrew took out his key and unlocked the door.  He felt a sence of euphoria at first. he had not had this much fun in a long time.  He forgotten how to laugh. It just kind of came back to him. 

Then the euphoria did ware off. He felt sad. He felt Like he had beteayed leane. He felt worse then he had before.  He checked his phone. He looked over the picture of himself and abby. They were so happy.  

She was so mischivous so playful. She was silly . he started to chuckle. He remembered what she had said.he did remember how he happy he was.he started to be ok. 

Abby had set the picture of them on her phone.  She looked at it frequently.  She beleved that that night was the beginning for them. 

The next day he checked his Facebook . he saw a comment from his mom. “I had forgotten what your smiling look like. It is nice to see it. ” she said. He got a private mesege from his mom. “Andrew who is this abbygail?  ” she asked.

He smirked. “Hi mom. Abby is my next door neighbor. She is a friend of myine. She is really sweet.  She is a belever but she is a penticoastal. I try not to hold that against her. “He said. 

He got a mesege back from his mom. “Well she seams really nice. She seams to care about you. I want to meet her. ” she said. 

In the afternoon abby knocked on his door. He opened the door.  “Hi ab!”he said.  “You need to get ready. You look fine if you want to ware that! “She told him. He was taken aback.  

“Where are we going?  ” he asked. “Newsboys concert. ” she said ” i remember hearing about them. Tery watkins dial the truth ministry had a lot to say about them. They are christian rock.i dont asociate with ccm.”he told her. 

“I am not going alone. Your coming. You can bring a david cloud book exposing ccm. You can zone out. Your comming. ” she declared.  “I am not wining this one am i? “He asked. “Do you want to? “She asked.”no i dont. I will come.  “He said she smiled. 

“Seriously. You read dial the truth ministry?  Terry watkins is a nut!”she said. “He makes some good points. “He said. She chuckled.

He got ready.  They went into her car. ” you know people are going going to talk!”he said. “Yes they are.” she said.

 Andy was not sure about this.  He felt very out if place. He figured that he was probably the only independent fundimental baptist at this concert. Most likly no one would recognize him. He imagined that abby was plastering there faces on Instagram and Facebook.  She seemed to love posting pictures on social media.  Everyone would know he was hear. 

The music was a bit loud. Abby seemed to know almost every song. She was very into it. She was not shy.she raised her hand.  She did not go out if her way to embarris andy. She described it as displaying abbyness. She definently did today.

He did not any of the songs.he did not get the apeal of ccm. It made no sense to him.he tried to keep an open mind. 

She look over at him. She would kinda check up on him.she ask him if he was ok. He said he was. 

The song God is not dead started a debate.  “Would not a revival bring people back to hyim singing not Christian rock?”he asked. “Why? Christian rock is sinply one way of expressing whats on there heart. Our generation is making our faith our own. Is what we doing any different from the rise of new songs that folowed the revival of john Wesley?  ” she asked. 

“Ccm to me is wordly. It is Christianizing wordly music!”he remarked. “Some acussed wesly of doing that. The organ was very controversial when it first entered the church.  ” she said. “I knew you were going to go there!” he said.

“There is nothing sacred about the okd hyims. Some are really good but they are not the only acceptable music!”she said. “Speaking yo yourselves in psalms hyims and spriutel songs” he said. “We dont know what the hyins paul refered to sounded like.i cant believe you went there.  “She said.he laughed.

He got more use to the music. It was not so bad. He enjoyed being with her.  He forgot what human interaction was like. 

After the concert they started to leave. “So are you sick of me or do you want to grab cofee?”she asked. “Yea absolutely.  That would be fun. ” he said. 

As they walked to the car,she realized that they were holding hands. She had no idea who started it. She was not sure if she should take her hand away from him  or not. She decided not to. It did make her a bit nervous.  

There hands parted when they got into the car.  “So you went to your first Christian rock concert and you did not get struck by lightning. “She said.  “Im stil trying to figure out how to explain it to pastor rolins and his wife. ” he said.

” you could say you were kidnaped by a psycotic penticoastal. ” she said.  “That is very believable. “He said. “Hey! You were were not suposed to agree.  “She said. 

At the cofee shop. “So are you trying to convert me to penticoastalsm?’he asked. “No although you as a penticoastal would be very intetesting. I imagibe you would still be you just with speaking in tounges. ” she said.

“Are you always going to drag me to penticoastal and evangelical events?”he asked. ” yes. We can do things you want to do. You have to plan it. I will go to your churches events or i.f.b friendly events but you have to plan it. I have to start to get ussed to Baptist any ways. “She said. 

“Because your eventually going to become a Baptist? ” he remarked. “Yes exactly.  “She answered.

“So what do is your end goal with draging me out of the house usualy kicking and screaming?” he asked. “I am not sure you want me to answer that. ” she said.  “Why?”he asked. 

“You might not like the answer.”she said. “Ok.”he said. “My end goal i guess is you and i married with kids. You pastoting a church and me being at your side. “She said. 

“Oh. ” he said. “I told you you might not like the answer. ” she said.  “I have to be honest with you. I dont plan to get married.  I figure i will be single all my life. ” he said.  

“You did not promise the lord that you would be single? “She asked. “No nothing like that. I just dont have the desire to be married any more. It is not really in me. “He said. 

“I am going to mary you andy. You have to know i am persistent.  My persistence usualy wins out in the end. ” she said. “I have notice that. Your a nice girl but i am just not interested in being maried at this point. I dont see me changing my mind on that. “He told her. 

“Well you do really know how to put a damper on a really good day.”she said. “i figured. i want to be honest.”he said. 

“you say that today. you may change your mind. rather its me or someone else you should be oppen.” she said.

she regteted saying me or someone else. she let her hurt talk. she wished she had not said that last line.  

“I just dont see that right now. “He said. “Ok. “She said. “I suspected that you were interested in me romantically. I would like to be friends but i cant be anything more.”he said. She thought to herself. “Cant or wont?” she would not say it out loud. 

The ride home was a bit tense. “Your upset with me?”he asked. “A little. You cant feel what you dont feel. It is wrong for me to ask you too. Your still young.  We made sense. I respect you and i respect your feelings. “She said. “Ok. ” he said. 

The car pulled in. “I am sorry. “He said.”i know. “She said. They parted ways. 

He checked his facebook. The pictures form the concert got a lot lot of coments. Poeple teased him for his skour. There was one picture where he had his arm around her. He did not remember doing that. He could not persue a relationship right now.  A part of him wished he could. 

End of part three 

Sorrow upon sorrow addendum 

Terasha was a klingon.she was a scientist in a world of woriers.she could have become a warier but she did not. She chose to persue her dreams.it seamed disastrous.  

Then the mass crises came. The klingon empire needed sciencentists now.  She became an instant star. Now she was working as an civialian advisor to star fleet. Working on behath of all three governments of the alliance.  She played a vital role now.

She was a scientist and now a sateswomen. She was an imformal advisor to the klingon chancelor. She also had the ear of enterprise captain and key oficial in the federation.  

Not only that but she is also a husband and morther. She was maried to human star fleet commander aaron jeshup. They had a daughter. She kept buisy with all of her various hats.

 While feeding her child ,she was looking over sansor data. She tried to take notes and focus on her child. Her child fell alsleep while feeding.she put her back in her crib.she kissed her forehead. She qietly left the room. She went back to the terminal. 

“Bridge to dr. Jeshup! ” kolona said. Terasha went over to the com pannel. “This is doctor jessup. ” terasha said. “We just got new orders.we are heading to qonos. The captain wants me to send you an update on our misson. He wants you to attend the brefing conference.  “Kolona said. ” understood.  I will look it over. I will become an expert before the brefing. “She assured the com officer. The transmission ended. .

She got up.  She put her hair into a pony tail. She ordered a hot chocolate from the replicator. She took a sip of the beverage. She studied the data on the screen. She read it.

She saw that the current wife of the chancellor had given birth to twins.one boy and a girl. The boy died not long after he was born. 

Klingon do not have tear ducts.they did nor shed tears. Many have come to beleve that klingon are unfelling and heartless. The warrior cast liked there enemies and there alies to think that. 

Klingon do get sad. Klingons do react to loss. They do mourn. Terasha despite her cold exterior was soft on the interior. 

She was sad to hear of his death.she felt bad for the chancellor. She also was very sad for sanjeya. She could not imagine what she was going though. Terasha feared losing a child.  Terasha hoped that her daughter would be healthy.so far she was thriving and doing well.she always woried for her child. She believed that she would for the rest of her life. 

She was ready to go to the brefing. After the brefing she spent some time with the science lab. She had not seen her husbend aaron sence the enterprise headed for qonos.

He saw her.he was playing with there daughter.  She huged him. He held on to her. He often said he spoke fluently in terasha. She refused to show her true self to many.  She would to aaron. 

He patted her head and her back.he was so gentle. She was not afraid to reveal her true self to him. 

“I cant not think about his child without thinking about keri. Keri is only a little bit older then his child.it hits too close to home Aaron.  ” she said. “It does with me as well tery. ” he told her. 

“Just hold me for a while ok?”she pleaded. He so do. They sat down on the couch. The baby smiled at her parents.  

“Terasha’s log i cant believe that mukuret is even considering sacrificing hiw surviving child. Muluret has had qiute an historic but controversial tenure in the top post. He was a military officer. He was an outsider.  He got to the top post by acident really. He won a duel against his predecessor and took the post. He has been very popular,very uunpopular and everyrhing in between.how can he kill his child?”she asked.

“There is a view that klingon faethers dont love there daughrers.i know that my farther loved me. I never doubted that. I know my grandfather loved me. I never doubted that. This proves that steriotype. I reallt hope he changes his mind. ” 

Later.

“Terasha!”sanjeya said. “I heard your husband has changed his mind?”she asked. “Yes he has. I would not have let him harm her. Id dont know how but i would have. I may not have been a warrior but that would not have mattered.  “Sanjeya said. ” i have no doubt of that !”she said. 

” i miss my son. I wished more then anything that he was hear with me.i love my daughter as well. “She said. “She is special i can tell. ” terasha told her. “I think so too” she said.

Enterprise 

He hugged her. She held on to him.she felt the enterprise going to warp. This was a hard misson. One of the hardest mayby even more then the mas crises. She was thankful for what she had. She held close to her family..

End. 

 

Sorrow upon sorows the conclusion. 

“Captain’s log,the chancellor of the klingon empire has rescinded an earlier declaration sating that the daughter shoud die as her brother. The enterprise who considered not attending the momorial adress has decided to attend after all. I am hopefull that our attendence will continue to shore up our alliance with them. ” 

Qonos 

First citty of qamche 

Imperial hall

The hall was filled to compacity. There were diplomats from a hundred or so different world thoughout the greater reigion. There were members of klingon government, the military,diplomatic core and common people.  The senior staff of the enterprise were there as well. 

After a few minutes the chancelor went to the podium. “People of the empire, honored guests. This is a grave day for the empire. This is a hard day for myself as well. I hoped for a different outcome. “He said.

“No one control ones destiny. Not totally.  I honor my son. He would havr brought me honor. He has. Today i chose not to fret over what canot be. I chose to create a world he would have been proud of. I chose to live on. He will live on in my memory. In the memory of his mother . he will live on in his sister.i know she will make him proud. I know this empire will make him proud.  We are klingons. We will endure. Because we must.”

“These have been perilous times for the enpire. We have survived. We have moved on. We will continue to do so. We have no choice. I know we can. I beleved those that has gone before us are cheering us on. We are there best hope. Those who come after us are looking to us as well. They look to us to pave the way for them. For there future. A future i believe we can create. One we will.”

“I do it with a broken heart. I am the leader of thr klingon empire.  I should be detached. I am not. No stoism today. Unconquered but not unschaved.  Not destoyed but not quite whole. “He said. 

As he spoke the door opened. She went over to ben. It was kalera. He put her arm around her. “You ok?”he asked. “Im getting there.”she said.”i love you.”ben said. “I love you.”she said. 

Epilougue

Nine mouths later.

U.s.s enteprise

Sickbay 

After several houers of labor. There daughter was born. Julie rebecca jihan norris. She was perfectly healthy. Dr. Piper gave the child to kalera. “Hi there. Welcome to the galaxsy julie. “She said. Ben kissed her forehead. 

After. A while ben held her. “Congradulations captain.”mark said.”thanks mark.” noris said. The doctor and nurse chepel left the new family to bond. 

The end. 

Sorrow upon sorrow part six. 

They went to the beefing room.kalera was visibly shaking. He hugged her. He held on to her. “Lori whats going on?” ben asked. 

“Ben I’m pregnient “she said.  “That’s a good thing right?”he asked. ” yes it is. We have talked about having children.  I do want children.  “She said.

“Then whats going on love?” he asked. She sat down. She broke down. He put his arm around her. “You know i was maried once upon a time. “She said. “Yes sub commander zerek. “He remarked.”yes. It was an arranged marriage.  As i have said he was killed in a battle with orion smugglers near the border. Before that i became pregnant.  I had a son.he died not long after he was born.”she said.

“Hunnie, i had no idea. ” ben said he held on to her. She cried on his shoulder. ” doctor piper says that he is going to treat this as a high risk pregnancy but he says that he says so far he is very optimistic.  He things every thing is good. We are having a daughter by the way. ” she said.

He smiled. ” look lori dr. Pipper is the besr. He is not the ships doctor he is pratically the ship’s grandfather.  He will do everything he can to make sure the baby is fine and healthy.” she said. 

“I know that. I have complete confidence in him. I am just afraid ben. I cant go though this again. If i lose this child i cant bear it. ” she said. 

“Lori we are not that yet. I cant assure you that everything will be fine. I don’t know what the future holds. None of us are totaly in control of our destiny. We are just not. There are always circumstances unseen forces.  We never have complete information. We cant know how things play out.lori this child is going to have two parents that love eachother and love her. She is going to be part of a larger comunity. She will be loved and cared for. “He said. 

“Ok. I know that. “Lori said.”i think that she is going to be fine. I am hooeful that she will be healthy and happy. Whatever happens we will deal with it together.  “He assured her. She rested her head on his shoulder. ” ok. ” she said.

“I love you. I love you so much ” she told her. She hugged him. They held eachorher. 

Bridge 

 “You seam happy?” dr. Piper said. “I am mark” he said. ” then i take you know now. ” dr. Piper remarked.”i do. ” the captain said. ” whats going on?”bienka asked. “I am going to be a dady. ” he said.the bridge crew congratulated him.everyone was happy for him. 

” alright i am going to meet with mukatet. Under no circumstances if any one to go to the surface.  “Ben ordered. “Aye sir. ” the female executive officr said. “Purit, carlos stand by to go to warp at a moments nottice !”ben ordered. The crew agreed. 

“Ok. Bienka you have the bridge! “He said. “Aye sir. ” she said.  “What if you cant convince the chancellor to spare the life of the child? ” gioto asked. “I have no idea barry. ” he said. 

The captain left the bridge.  He entered the turbo lift. The door closed behind him. 

Home of the chancellor

Camche

” captain norris you wanted to speak to me in private?” the chancellor asked. “I do chancellor.  Thank you for meeting with me!”he said.

“Of course. Captain. “Mukaret said.”chancellor i wish to speak to you off the record. “Ben told the klingon leader. “Of course benjaman it it?” the leader said.

“May i be canded?” he asked. ”  proceed.  “Mukaret said. “Sir i understand that the loss of your son is a huge blow to you. It is truely a tragedy.  I must say that i disagree with your decison to terminate the life of your surviving child. This is hardly a solution.  “He told the klingon in charge of the empire.  

“Captain.  Humans are known for there belief that all life is sacred. All life has value.  It is a view that manny klingons do not share. I have always believed that one has to prove there value.  There are not enough resources to justify a terusnagen philosophy. “He told the captain. 

“Mukaret do not this! You will regret it. Dont go down this path. You will never be able to reverse it. This will undo you sir. “Ben said. 

“I have daughters captain.  I do not need more. “Mukaret said. “What about sanjaya? Would you really be so cruel. Dont you care about anyone but yourself?  “Ben norris said.

“Carefull captain. You may be a defacto ambassador for the federation. We may be alies but i wont tolerate insult in my private chambers.” the chancellor said.

“She will never forgive you. In your mind you can remove her as your wife. What if your next wife fails to get you a son and the next? How far wil you go?” he asked.

“I dont want to look at that child!”he said. “Alow sanjaya to take the child to the federation.  ” ben said.”my enemies might use it agqinat me. They may say i am weak for not keeping to my original edict. Other might say i am against family vailures. It is a risk.”he said.

“Why not five her a chance. Who knows you too might become close?” ben asked. “I dont know if i have the strengh to do this. She will be a constent reminder of what i have lost. ” he said. 

“Mayby but you will be reminded no matter. It chould be worse. Come on chancellor.  Please please.”norris pleaded with him. He thought it over.

He got up and left his office. Be. Folowed him.sanjaya was cradiling her daughter in her arms. “Sanjay! Captain norris and i have discused it. I am resinding my decison. “He said.

“Thank you. ” she said. “I hope you can forgive me in time. Some day i may ask for it. I will not today. I do see the error of my earlier decison.” the chancellor said. ” i am happy with your new decison. You will not regret it. She will bring honor to you. “Sanjeya said. “The ceremony will be to honor our late son. Today we afirm life.” he said 

“Mukaret my heart aches . i know it does for you as well. “She told him.”it is like a dusruptor beam to the head. I am dead but move. “He said. “I feel the same. “She said.

“I have never lost a child. I have gad my share of greef. You keep going becsuse you have to. Those who left us would want us todo no less. “Ben said. 

To be concluded. 

Sorow upon sorrow part five 

“Captian’s log,what was to be a ceremonial diplomatic misson designed to pay our respects to the chancellor for his loss. It took a very different turn. ”

“The chancelor has decided to sacrifice his other child . this is a shock to the crew. Though i find the whole things reprehensible.  There may be nothing i can do. ” ben norria said.

Senjeya had no idea that this was happening. Makerret had not said much to her sence the incident. She was shocked. How could he do this. She loved that child. 

Despite all that had occured, she had bounded with the child. She could not believe he would even consider this. She knew that he really pitied her when she made her his wife. In his mind perhaps she betrayed him. She could not let him do this.

She tried not to betray her emotion. She did not want to incur any further wrath with him. She could not risk that. 

The whole croud seemed shocked. No one dared say anything. They did not want to be seen as disloyalty.  Disloyalty was punished quickly. Mukuret was an all or nothing kind of guy. They knew it. No one wantes to risk his wrath.  

U.s.s enterprise

Kyile beemed the crew back to the enterprise.  Evetyonr started to talk at once. Norris calmed them down.”ok people. I know this is very disturbing.  I am just as distrubed as all of you. “Norris said.

“This is indecent sir. We cant let this happen. “Navigator purit said.”look i dont want this to happen any more then you do jasson. We may not have a choice.the prime directive aplies hear. We need this allience. The galaxy needs to heal from themass crises. “Norris said.

“We cant just do nothing.  We cant sacrifice one life for untold trillons can we?”smith asked. “I dont know what i can do but i wont just do nothing. I am going to contact star fleet command. I prery much know what they are going to say but i will stil try. Terasha work your sources in the klingon government and military and orther circles. See if you can find out how serious the chancelor is. Sub commander work your romulan sources.  Kolona work your sources in the communications tech circles. My gues is he is serious. He will go though with this. “Norris said. 

“What do we do?”giotto said. “I dont know yet chief. Just leaving orbit and heading back to the federation seams too little. I dont know what can be done. I will look. “Norris said. 

Camche 

Sanjeya had no idea this was coming.she felt like she had been stabed in thr back with a batleth. She had been holding her daughter when the chancelor made his grizzy decleration. She could not believe that he said this. 

She loved her daughter. She was a first time mother. Her motherly instincts kicked in almost imedietly. Her daughter helped coupe with the loss of her son. She had no idea how to move on. Her klingon nature would not alow her to give up. 

She was starting to find a way to move on. Now her husband had pulled the legs from under her. All to benefit him. He only thought of himself. He was selfish.he was self obsorbed. Most klingon chancellor were but he outdid all of them. 

She was angery with him.she considered formerly challenging hin.she knew she would lose. She needed to stay alive for her. Her baby was alive. That was something.  

“Mukeret how dare you!” she said.”what do you meen?” he asked. ” you pitarkh. You disgust me!”she said.  “Watch yourself sanjeya! I am chancelor of the klingon empire.” he said 

“Your a dishonorable tobar. Your pride was wounded.  You decide if your miserable so is everyone else. You are supreme commander of the klingon fleet. You command one of the bigest standing army in the quadrant.  You are head of government of a major intergalatic power. You own land,houses,ships, what do i have?  Yet you want to take the one thing i do have?”she asked. .

“The universe hae insulted me. I will not be insulted. I dont want the reminder constently. This child will have too hard if a life. I am being compassionate.  “He said.

“I will never forgive you mukurat. I promise you that. “She told him. “I can live with that.  ” he said. ” i am sure you can .” she reaplied. 

U.s.s enterprise

Confrence room

“Ben i syimphithise with you. Our hands are tied. We were invited hear. This is there world.  “Admiral komack said.

“I know.  This seams so unnecessary.  “Noris said. “I agree. We can file a formal protest. I am almost certain it will fall on deaf ears.”the admiral said.

“I know your right. I know the importence of the tripple alliance.  I just cant phathom this.  I feel like the chancellor is being extremely wimsical. ” the captain said.

“I do too. He may regret this. The council is deliberating this. They may recall the ambassador but other then that i dont know what steps we can take. ” the admiral said. “That was what i thought. I figured that i would contract you. “Norris said. ” of course .happy to consult. I wish i could say something diffetent. “The admiral said. “Yea”he said.

Bridge

“Let me gues,admiral komack was no help?”giotto said. “You got it barry.” norris told him. “What now?”dr. Piper asked. “I dont know.” norris said.  

Qonos 

“Kazek!”terasha said. “Terasha it is good to see you. “Kazek said. “I know the scientific community is not the favorate of the empire.  “She said. “It is common.” kazek said. “True. You must hear things. What is the reaction to the chancelor move in regard to his child?”terasha asked. 

“Well many in the defence force see him as weak for not being able to protect his son. Some in the military are proned to suport it. Others are outwaged. The opionons run the gamut. “The scientist said. 

“Will he go though with this?” terasha asked. “Everything i have seen Leeds me to think that he will. “Kazek said. “That what i thought!”terasha said.

Bridge 

“My government does not like it. They are planing to look into isuing a satement if condemnation but they wont do anything that has teeth. “The sub commander said. “The high council does not seam wiling to do anything.  Many on the council dont aprove but they dont want to move against him or do anything that could be viewed as disloyal. “Terasha said.  

“Can we grant asylium?” Smith asked. “Sanjeya would have to ask for it.”spock said. “The minute she disappeared they would suspect us. They will not never let us leave. They may fire on us. ” giotto said.

“Would that not solve the problem. The child the reminder of his failure would be gone. Out of sight out of mind. “Smith said. “That is not enough for him. It is a matter of hournor. His hornor was insulted. This is his way of getting it back. ”  norris said. 

“If we socilit her asking for asylium, we could be seen as trying to stir up trouble on qonos. ” dr. Piper said “chief hallak i want you to work on ways of getting out of klingon space quickly. “Norris ordered. He sighed and said,”yes sir.” the orion reaplied. 

“Lets make sure the ship is ready if we need to make a fast getaway. “Norris ordered. ” you got it. ” guitetez said. “We will be ready for anything.  “The secuity chief said. 

“I want battle drills. Lets do shipbored battle simulations and ground simulations as well. ” the captain ordered. The bridge crew agreed. 

The captain hoped that he did not have to do this. He feared he might have to. This could spiral out of control. 

” how could a father wilingly sacrifice a child?” smith asked. “It hapened before even in earth history. “Spock said.”i dont get it. I dobt have kids but if i did. I would do whatever it took to protect them.i am preotective of my neces and nephews. I would do whatever it took to protect them. ” he said.

Kalera heard him say that. ” hi !” norris said.he kissed her. When it came to his wife he did not adhere to protocol.  ” can we talk?” she asked. “If course hunnie. Keep working on this. Bienka you have the bridge! “He said. “Aye sir,the exo said. 

End of part five.