Wedding party part 9

Previously on wedding party. 

Tracy and steve are getting maried. This meens hard work and preperation. Her father died a little while back.  It has put a damper somewhat on an otherwise happy event. 

The two people that have been instrumental in this is her big brother matt and her best friend amber. They had both been proven to be inseparable.  

Matt and amber started off not liking each other. They finaly made peace. They became friends. Now they were starting to consider mayby a more permanent arangement. 

One day before wedding. 

Amber woke up fairly early. She thought about him. She was not sure what to do. Should she talk to him? Should she try to create a more permanent relationship? She had no idea. 

She realy liked matt. She did not realize how much. She had thought about a relationship with him. It was never that serious until now. She realy liked the idea. She could not beleve it. 

She laid in bed for a while. Then she decided to get out of bed. She knew she was beyond the point of getting back to sleep. It was close to the time she wanted to get up anyways. 

She went downstairs. She made cofee. After a few minutes,  amber came downstairs.  “One nore day trace!” amber told her. “I know!  I am so psyched.  I can’t believe that it is almost hear. ” tracy said. 

“I am so happy for you trace. Steve is a great guy. You too will have a good life together. “She told Tracy.  Tracy smiled. “I think so too. It realy is all comming together nucely. I am really impressed.  ” Tracy said. Amber said. 

Matt woke up. He felt like there was a million things he had to do. He hoped that it would all come together. He dragged himself out of bed. He got into the shower.

He got dressed and hot ready to go to his mom’s house. He kept thinking about his conversation with amber. He thought about what she said.

Was she talking about her?Was she suggesting they get married? Was this a joke. Amber did like to joke around?  She could have been just fooling around?  It might not be what he thought?  He might be reeding too much into it.

Perhaps the week was getting to him. He was tired,everyone was. He migjt be have gotten caught up in everything. He did like the idea of them being maried.

He let his mind waunder a bit. He imagined he and her maried. He imagined maried life would not be that different from what there relationship was like now. They would talk,share, joke around, tease. They realky knew eachother. They knew how eachother ticked. They understood eachother in a way no one else did. 

He stoped himself.  He ended that train of thought.  He decided that this was fatigue talking. Everything was getting to him. If he waited ot out,this melancholy he was feeling would pass. He just had to tough it out.  

That image of the little boy playing into he dirt. A little baby girl in his wife’s arms. He working on a surmon bit stoping and looking up at his wife.  Her wearing a t shirt of a Christian rock band and denim skirt. It was quite an image. It felt right.

He never really consider that amber could be a petsprctive wife for him.she had been hear all this time and he just did not see it. She had nfer let him done.she had always been there for him.  She gave never asking for anything in return.  It had been so obvious to everyone but him. 

He tried to focus. There was still much to do. Right now he would focus on business. Later well that was later. 

He got into his car and drove to his mom’s house. It was a short drive. The car arived. He parked the car. He turned off the car. He walked inside. 

“Good morning!” he said. They all said hello. He hughed his mom. He hugged tracy. When he came over to amber. He hugged her. She held on to him. 
Soon steve came over. They had beakfast then got ready to go to the church.  The cars parked at the church parking lot. They all got out. 

He went up to the church. She went over to tracy. “Hey trace. Things have been prety hetic. I just wanted you to know that i am so proud of you. I am so thankfull to the lord for who you have become. I know dad would be so happy for you.  ” he said.

She hughed her. “Your a great big brother.  ” she told him. “Thanks. ” he said. 

When everyone arrived,  tracy called a meeting.  There was the immediate family and church memebers who were going to help. 

“Ok. This is going to be a hetic day. We need to be working hear and at the house. Some of you will be doing a lot of runing around.  We need to be totally done by 3:00. The rehearsal dinner is at five sharp. Of course pastor ramsey will be there at four thirty. Mom has requesed we be done at three, no latter. ” tracy said. 

“We are going to be going at full hilt bit we can do this! Things are really shaping up. It loos great! ” matt said. 

“It really does. Thank you all for your help. It has been great.  Lets get it done!” tracy said. Everyone agreed .  They got to work. 

Tracy got everyone readyby giving direction.  She got a plan for finishing touches on the dining hall. Then she put the finising touches on the sanctuary and hall way. She got  everyone to come up with a plan to get the church ready in the allotted time. 

Then she went to her mom’s house to get the house ready for the rehersal dinner. She did a lot of ruining around. She got a lot done at the house then went back to the church.

Matt saw tracy. “Trace! What do you think about me and amber?” he asked.she smilled. “What do you think about you two?” tracy asked. ” its weird. I did not like her ar first. Slowly we became non combative then acquaintance then friends and now good friends. I feel like things are different between us. I like her. I like her alot!” he told her. 

“You two have something special. You have for a while. There is a special bound between you two.” she said. 

“Is it ok if we do get together? ” he asked. She chuckled. “You definently have my permission.  “She said. “Thanks sis. ” he said. 

“You two make a realy cute couple.  ” tracy said.  “I still cant believe i am even considering this.  We are so different.  We think diferently. It is not just doctrine,  theology, music, bible versions, seperation. There is so much more differences. ” he said 

“You two mesh well. You will figure this out. I know you two will. ” she said. He smiled. He knew that she was right.  

The house was set up for the rehersal dinner. The church and felowship hall was coming along well also. They worked til noon. They had sandwitches and then got back to work. 

They got the big stuff done then worked on the nit picky stuff. Then they did last minute vacuuming and everything else done. Tracy and her mom and amber did a tour of the building. 

Everything checked out.  They assembled near the building.  She thanked everyone for there hard work. She gathered the wedding party together.  

“Ok. Everyone needs to be at the house by 4:30. Not 4:31 , 4:30. Pastor ramsey will be there at around four thirty. ” Tracy’s mom said.  

Everyone dispersed.  Matt went to his place. He showered and got dressed. He put on a black sports coat,blue tie and black pants and a white shirt. He combed his hair. He was not a fashonista by any meens. He tried to look presentable.  He was an ordained pastor and tomorrow he was the “farther of the bride. ” he wanted to be well dressed. 

He felt he was ready.  He headed out. He was nervous. He had no idea why.perhaps because pastor ramsey was going to be there. The pastor was a kind of elder satesman within the independent fundimental baptist movement. He had pastored several churches. He was a widower. At seventy four he was stil in relitivly good heath. Though he was not pastoring a church,he kept busy with pulpit suply, confrences and retreets,writing books and his own you tube chanel. He was taking a cooking class at a local college  . he had grand children and great grandchildren.  

He was a friendly man.  He was a bit imposing.  Matt known him sense he was little. Matt always felt a little intimidated by him. 

He pulled up in the driveway. He walked inside. He saw amber. Amber was wearing a pink blouse and gray skirt and sandles. She had braded her hair and had a poney tail. 

He said hello to everyone .”you look really nice tonight. ” he said. “You cleaned up really well yourself.  ” she said.  He laughed. 

The pastor arived. They chatted then went to yhe dining room. Tracy agreed to let matt and amber sit together providing they be on there best behavor. They agreed. “When are we not on out best behavor? ” matt asked. “Im just making sure” tracy said.  

They all sat down.  The family matriarch asked pastor ramsey to give the blesing.  He prayed. 

“So Matthew.  How are things going at g.b.c?” pastor ramsey asked. “Very well. We have several new families and some new singles. We have had some new converts. Things are hapening. ” matt said.

“I have heard good things about the church. I was pleased that you accepted the pastorate. ” the elderly pastor said. 

“It was a really hard decision. I had wanted to be a youth pastor. My dad wanted me to be a senior pastor. I was reluctent to do that. I was shocked when the deacons approached me . my first instinct was to decline.  The holy sprit did not give me any peave until i agreed. I thank the lord that he did keep prodding. ” matt said.

“Your farther and i talked about you. He thought you had the gifting and narural abiluties needed to be a senior pastor.  He felt you would decide to persue a pastorate. ” pastor ramsey said. “I am not surprised. ” he said.

“So who will be next to get maried?” ramsey asked. ” i am hoping it will me.” there 16 year old brother Philip said.  Merissa a 14 year old suggested her. 

“Any prospects Matthew? ” the pastor asked. “Perhaps! ” he said nervously. The family laughed. He had no idea how to answer that one. Mercifully they moved on to another topic. 

Im addition to matt and his family, there were several guests. Steve and his parents.  Steve’s best man was a friend from bible college. His two groomsman were friends from childhood. Tracy bridesmade were her two sisters who next in age. Gracie the three year old was the flower girl. 

After the dinner they went to the church for the rehearsal. The rehersal went well. Then the pastor prayed. 

Amber went over to matt. She whispered in his ear. “Mary me!” amber said. “What? ” he asked. “Mary me!” she said.pastor ramsey dismised the meeting. 

They dispersed. Matt waited until they were outside.  “Amber wait up! ” matt said. She stopped. ” hi matt!” she said. “Did you meen what you said or was this amber humor?” he asked.  “I have never been this serious in my life.  You and i have been dancing over this issue foever.  We both can think of a thousand reasons we shouldint. I can think of only one why we should. I love you. I know you love me.  ” she said.

“I am not saying no. I need time to pray about it. ” he said.” yea i figured.  I dont need an answer today or tomorrow.  Give it some thought. Get back to me when you can. “She said. 

“I will give it some thought. I will pray about it. I will get back to you. ” he said. “Ok. ” she said.  

He wanted to dot his eyes and cross his t’s. He believed that you should never make a decision until you have clear direction from the lord. He wanted to stop and reflect.  He was pretty sure that he knew the answer.  He was fairly certain he would say yes. 

End of part 9

Panic attack part 14 

Priviously on panic attack

Jack a bible colege graduate  and assistant pastor meets kristin. Kristin had been in a savere car accident. She sufers from emotional bagege connected to it. The two decided to date. With the dicovery that she is on addictive medication and under the care of a secular pyschologest. He decided that they should take a break. 

” i think you should leave now” she said. He quickly agreed and said goodnight. He got in his car and drove off.

She sat on the porch for a few minutes. She tried to regain her comportment. She tried to calm down. She knew that her mom and sister would ask questions she perfered not to answer. She went inside.

“Jack did not stay long?”diane remarked. “No he did not. “Was all she said in response. She went to her room. 

She suspected that something was amis. He had not talked to her hardly at all. She had to call him. He did not ask to come by. She had trusted him. He had let her down. That was over now. 

He drove right home.  He went inside. “You ok?”his dad asked. “I told her i wanted a break. I think we might be done done.”he said. “I was afraid that might happen.  She has a lot to sort out. Mayby an independent fundimental Baptist is not the best match for her. ” his dad said. “Perhaps not. ” he said. 

“I know you wanted her to be the one. Mayby it is juat not ment to be.” his dad said. “You could be right. Just because her mom church shops does not meen she will. ” he said.

“Are you having seccond thoughts about all this? ” his dad asked. “No! I realy just wanted a break not a break up. ” he told him. “As i understand it there was a defiance.  ” his dad said. “That was from her mom. Dad i realy like her. Do you want me and her to be done?” he asked. 

“No. I wont tell you to break it off with her. If you two decide to get maried i think i would suport it. You need to really think about this. ” he said. 

 She went upstairs and shut her bed room door. She cried. She tried not to be too loud.she did not want to arouse suspicions. She eas fircely independent.  She wanted to figure this out on her own. 

The next day was saterday. It was odd. A saterday rarely happened without them seinf eachother. They did not see eachother at all that saterday. 

That saterday night she changed her facebook photo from one of her and jack to one of just her. She then changed her face book relationship form in a relationship with jack rayburn to single. She was ready to move on. She wanted to move pass it.

That sunday jack taught sunday school class. Kristin usualy attended his class. She was there. He said helo to everyone.   

At the service they did not sit together. “How come you and miss grener are not sitting together? ” mrs. Sandra canon asked. “Oh! We are no longer a couple.  ” he said. “Oh ! I am sory to hear that. “She said. 
He ran into her after the service.  He could not avoid her. “Hi! Kristin. “He said. “Hi. Jack. ” she said. “How have you been?”he asked. “Fine! You?”she asked. “I am good.”he said. “I am glad to hear that.  ” she said. Then the conversation ended. They dispersed. 

That night jack preached. Kristin loved to hear him preach.  He preached on the blood of christ. He traced the idea of a blood sacrifice from genises to revelation.  

He stood at the back and shock people’s hands ias they left. He came to diane and ashly and shock there hands. Then he  came to Kristin.  ” hello kristin! ” jack said. “Hello” she said. Then she left. 

 Jack did not feel like himself all week. He felt off. He hated this feeling. He decided one night to go for a ride to clear his head. He knew exactly where he would go. He went to the place they had gone. He saw her green jeep. 

He ran to her. “Krissy! Hi”he said. She was crying. “Hey jack!”she said. She hugged him. They held on to eachother. 

“What are you doing hear?”she asked. “I needed to clear my head. I was hoping to see you.”he said. “Why didn’t have you call me?”she asked.”i was afraid you would not answer.  I was not totaly sure i was going to talk to you. “He said.

“Why did you shut me out?”she asked.”i was confused. I beleve that the bible has every answer for life. The bible warns about being taken captive by worldly Philosophy.  Paaul warned timouthy to avoid science falsy so called. We must cling to the word of God. I was afaid that i would have to chose between the lord and i. I needed time to sort this out. I realy wanted a break,not a break up.pastor broaden was concerned that your mom kepts the bible and science seperate. Kind of gestalt.  Like max plank said there is bible and science and never the twain shall meet.”he said.

“When i first woke up, i was in bad shape. I was beyond depressed.  The medical facility recommend i be under the care of dr. Ted. I was under mom’s gaurdienship at the time. She did not know what to do. At this point i cannot go off the drugs. Perhaps tte dosege can be reeuced but not elliminated completly. I do believe that the bible has all the answers for life. If i had been in charge of those decisions i dont know what i would have done.  ” she said.

“When we get maried, i want every devision we make as a family to be evaluated by the word of God. The world and the bible have different agandas. These aganda do often conflict. We have to go with the word of God.  ” he said. 

“Do you realy believe that anti depressants are unbibilical?”she asked. “Christians are empowered by the holy sprit. We are told not to be conformed to this world but to be transformed.  I take isue with drugs that alter behavior. I question its use by belevers. I dont have a definitive answer. ” he said.

“Alright. I understand your concerns.” she said. “I am more concerned by the thought process that led to the decision then the decision itself. Your family grew up in the church. The church seemed to be disregarded. ” he said. 

“Looking back on it,perhaps it was.  That is regrettable.  “She said. “It seemes your family left at the first sign of resistance.  You kept leaving churches that disagreed with you. You run every time there is an issue. You wont let anyone get close to you. ” he said. 

“I know it looks we just up and left redemption Baptist church but that is not the case. The pastor and deacons were relentless. They made the environment toxic. Yea we were a bit shy at new churches. We felt betrayed.  Legit or not i dont know but that is how i feel. ” she said. 

“Are you going to leave gbc?” he asked.  “When we came at first. We were just checking it out. We knew your church was similar to r.b.c but we were runing out of options i gues. So far we like the church. There is this one guy in the church that is kinda cute. ” she said. 

“Kinda cute?” he asked. “Oh i was not talking about you. ” she said in a playful tone. “Oh you werent?” he asked. “I was talking about lester cole!” she said. “He is eighty two. ” he said.  They laughed. 

“You think my first instinct is to run?” she asked. “Sometimes it seems  that way.  I dont understand it. ” he said. “You dont like our arangement?” she asked.  “Why do you want to deal with this alone. Why is it when times are tough your first instinct is to run away from me not to me. I want to be your suport system.  I am ok with your rules but i hope we can get pass it in the future. ” he said. 

“I do trust you. I have come to rely on mom and my sisters.  It is hard to trust anyone outside the iner circle. I did trust rbc. They were great at first. When i started being under dr. Ted, it all changed. I felt betrayed. It is hard to trust anyone not in the iner circle. ” she said. 

“Were you suicidal krisy?” he asked.she put his arm around her. “I dont know. A little mayby. I was so devisated. I had lost the will to live. ” she said. “Now?” he asked. “Not really.  Sometimes. ” she said. 

“Do you want to come to my house and hang out with me for a bit?”he asked. “Am i stil welcomed?” she asked. ” yes.” he said .

Her phone went off. “Hello mom. ” she said. “Are you ok?” her mom asked.”yea i am in my spot. I ran into jack. I am going to hang out with him for a while. ” she said. “Are you two ok?” she asked.”i think so.” she said.  

They walked to there cars. She hugged him for a bit. They got in there cars and headed for his parent’s house.

End of part 14

Next up

Kristen talks to jack’s perents.jack and kristin work out there differences.  

Wedding party part 7 

Three days until the wedding.

 The day of the wedding got closer. Things were comming together. The church was shaping up. There was still much to do. 

The night before ,tracy ,amber and her mother conplied a list of things left to do. They put together a time table of when they wanted to get it done.

Tracy and amber got up fairly early. This had been there tradition thoughout the week. They got thr cofee ready.  Her mom came down the stairs. Tracy and amber said helo to her. 

“Mom! I know i have got a little out of hand this week. ” tracy said.”your excited about your upcoming wedding.you should be.its understandible.” her mom said. 

“How are you doung with all this?” tracy asked her mom. “Its been hard.it has been a little bit of an emotional roller coaster. I am ok. ” she said.

“I have wanted to talk to you about this.  I have been a bit self involved. I wanted to check up on you. ” tracy said.

“This week i have definently felt his absence. It is unavoidable. I knew it would.  I am not just thinking about the fact he is not hear. I have been thinking about the good times. ” she said. “There have been Manny? ” Tracy said. She smiled. “There have indeed.  ” her mom told her. 

“Its hard to see you growing up. Going on your own. I am proud of you trace. ” she said. Tracy huged her.”thanks mom. That meens alot. ” she said.

“You! Miss amber you beter not be a stranger! ” she told amber. “I wont. I will definently visit. I will keep in touch via phone and social media.  You cant get rid of me that easily.” amber said. “Good!” Tracy’s mom said. 

After a while matt arived.  He got some cofee.  “Hi mom. Hi trace hi amber.” he said.they all said hi back.he huged his mom. He huged her sister . it was unclear if he did this out of a paturn but he huged amber as well. Neither realized tbat they were hugging until they were well into it. They were both a little embarrassed.  Neither one really regretted it though. 

Neither one knew what to say.they both tried to move on from that action. Hopefully mom and tracy could overlook it.

Steve arived as well. Tracy and steve hugged. They had breakfast.then they left for the church. They all got together near the front of the church. They asembled for the morning brefing as it were. 

” ok midweek service is at 6:00. We need to stop at 4:30.  We have a lot to get done and not a lot of time to do it in.  ” matt said. 

“I want to have the dining hall today. We will need to tidy it up friday.the caterers wil arive. I want what we can get done now done today. Tomorrow we will push hard on the sanctuary.  I would love for downstairs to be totaly done.” tracy said. 

“I think we can. I just wanted to press that point.” he said. He led in prayer then they got to work. 

Matt and Steve finished up working on the lattice work.  They finished up the gate and made a door. The decorations on the wall was finished up. A cd player was brought in. During the reception,they would play instrumental sacred music. 

They put the finishing touches of downstairs felowship hall. Decorations were placed in the coridors as well. 

While decorarions and lattice work for the auditorium began. They started to lay the groundwork.  They would not set it up today but they would have it all ready to go the next day.  The more done today the better was the mood of everyone involved.  

They did some cleaning up and vacuming as well. Usualy the dining hall was used as prayer room on wendsday. Today upstairs room would be used. 

Alot had been accomplished.  Things were about where tracy wanted them to be. They had everything ready for the service and the work for the next days. The big push would occur Thursday and friday. There waa a rehearsal dinner held at there mom’s house and then the rehersial. Everything had to be done before then. Time would be of the essence.  Crunch time would be on Thursday morning. 

They left at four thirty.  They went home for supper. After dinner,they all got ready for the service. Amber went with him to the church.  They took some of the younger kids. 

As pastor , matt preached.  He got to the podium. ” i want to preach tonight on the unchanging God. Hebrews tels us that God is the same yesterday, today and foever. Our lord is consistent.  He is a God of order. He is a God of structure. Sometimes we read leviticus and we can get bodged down. The purpose of the book of leviticus to saw God is a God of order.he ordaned that israel his chosen nation would have distict laws. Thes laws are extensive.  It shows a system a structure. Some of these laws were ceremonial. God still has structure. Some cerimonial laws are not observed. Others are stil in place.  Murder is stil murder for example. ” he said.

“God is holly. Peater qaoting from the old testament said,’be holy for i am holy. ‘ God is holly is a concept that goes all the way from genises to revelation.  He is different. He is set apart. ‘numbers. 23:9 said ‘God is not a man that he should lie.nor the son of man that he should repent. ‘ God does not lie. That does not change. God is truthful.  Jesus said that he is the way truth and the life. Jesus also said that the truth will make you free. It is not just truth in general. The truth of who he is. ”

“We see that his promises do not change. He promised abraham that he would be a great nation. His seed will outnumber the stars. There was a belief that the covenant God made with Moses whitch was a conditional covenant superseded the Abrahamic covenant.  Paul in galations said that could not be further from the truth. On the cross jesus declared that it is finished. The author of hebrews said that christ is the author and finishers of our faith.  He has promised to never leave us or forsake us. We trust him because we see evidence of his unchanging nature. ” 

“I take comfort in his unchanging nature. I love his consistency.  We see that the lord if a person of his word. We live in an  unchanging world. Circumstances change. There are events we canot forsee. He loves us. He knows what is best for us. This church has changed. It started as a church of two families meeting at a laundry mat in to this building. My dad is now with the lord. Tracy is about to start her jouney. I know that God has an overal plan. I trust in that.i am thankfull for it.”matt said.  

The men and women separated into groups. After the prayer time the guys talked for a bit. ” so who is next to get maried in your family?” Charlie a deacon asked.  “I want to get though this wedding.  Probably joel or Philip.  Perhaps merisa. ” he said.

“Not our young pastor? ” an older man named henry asked. “It could happen i supose. Right now i do not forsee it but i gues it could happen.  ” he said.

“You and that young lady who is Tracey’s maid of hournor is not the future mrs pastor davis?” charlie asked. He blushed a bit. “The lord knows what is best. I am sure that if i am to be maried ,it will be the best choice.” he said. 

Amber prayed with tracy,her mom and a few other ladies. “We are so excited for this wedding! ” elsa an older lady said. ” thanks. We are too. “Tracy said.

“It is really coming together.  “Tracy mom said.”i can see that.” the older lady said. “So who is the nect Davis to be maried? ” another lady asked. ” i think the pastor is the next davis child who will be maried. ” tracy said. Amber tried not to blush. 

“I can see that. ” amber said. They laughed. Amber was surprised that tracy said that. 

When they walked back upstairs amber talked to tracy. “You realy think that matt will get maried next ?”amber asked.  “I realy do! ” she answered. 

After a closing remarks thr service was concluded. The davis returned to her house. Matt sat on the porch. Amber came out. ” lost in thought? ” amber asked. ” a little! Tonight was the last time our family in its current form will go to church. So Manny changes.  Seems like yesterday i played in the dirt over there. ” he said.

“I cant imagine you playing in the dirt.” amber said. “I loved playing in the dirt. I loved playing with toy trucks. One of the advantages of having young brothers is i can play with trucks with them. Of course when they go down for a nap i have to stop. ” he said. 

“I wont tell anyone? ” amber said. He laughed. “Alright! ” he said.”i loved your mesege tonight.  I know it was from the heart!” she said. “I had trouble coming up with a messege . i was a bit distracted.  My message camebout of my feelings. It started comming together.  ” he said.” i know the lord will use it. ” amber said. “I definently hope so. I too believe it will.” he said.

“You ok?” she asked. “Yes i am. I am just feeling melancholic.  I think i am just tired. I am happy how the wedding preperation is going. I think it is exhaustion.  ” she said. ” ok.i just wanted to make sure. ” she said. 

After a while matt decided to go to his place. He was ready for bed. Amber walked him to his car. He hugged her. “Good night!” he said. “Goodnight!” she said.

End of part 7

Next up

As the push to get the church ready for the wedding go into high gear, amber and matt consider there future. 

End of sorrow part 10

The next day , Andrew woke up. He got ready for work. Today he made sure he brought his phone.  He texted her before he clocked in. “Good morning ab. I miss you.  I hope you have a good day. ” he told her. 

She saw the text after she woke up.she smiled. She texted him back. “Good morning babe. I miss you too.hope you have a great day. Talk to you in a bit. ” she told him in her text.

They texted back and forth though out the day.  He did not carry his cell phone while he was working. He checked his phone on his breaks.  They corresponded all thoughout his shifts on his off time.  

She could not help wondering if he realy liked texting her? She feared he might just be overcompensating for yesterday.  She knew he liked her. Was he Just lonely?  She wanted him to be wowed by her. He was just not there. 

He calked her on his lunch break. “Hi hunnie, tonight is my churches midweek service. It is usualy a message folowed by prayer time. The men and women split up.  Want to come? ” he asked. 

“Yes. Sure. ” she said. “Great. It starts at six. ” he said. “Ok. Sounds good. ” she said. When she hung up the phone.  She started to have seccond thoughts. She did not know anyone besides andrew. She had talk to his mom and sisters. Probably she could pray with them. 

Then something else occured to her. Clark and jacky would be there. Would they be ok with her being there. Would they be uncomfortable seing the man who almost became there son in law with someone else. What if jacky was in her prayer group. This could be really akward. 

They were becoming close. If they decide to get maried this will probably become there home church. She would have to get though the awkwardness eventually any ways. Why not start now? 

She decided not to burden andrew with her anxiety. The fact he invited her was a huge step. He wanted her in his world. He was letting her in. She was glad of that. She wanted to be in his world.  She figured that this was as good a time as any to get though the awkwardness.  

 She met up with him right before the service. She wore a pink shirt and pink skirt and sandles. “Do i look independent fundamental Baptist enough? “She asked. “Your fine. Everyone knows your penticoastal. Well baby gracie might not but everyone else does. “He said 

“Do i send out chariamatic vibes or did you tell them?”she asked. “It came out.  “He said. They got into his car. They drovde on to church. 

“Are you nervous abby?”he asked. “A little.”she said. “You have been hear before. We are all one family. “He tried to assured her. She did not want to say anything but that was what worried her. 

He parked the car. They went inside. She tried not to be nerved on. She knew that she was.  They walked inside.  Most everyone remembered her from the picnic. She figured out very early on that this was a friendly church. She would become very close with manny in the church. 

She liked the pastor’s message.  She was not sure what to do. Andrews’s mom invited her to join her and two of his sisters..she folowed them downstairs.  

Jacky jouned there group. “Hi its abby right?”she asked. “Yes. Your jacky? “She asked. “It is good to see you again.” jacky remarked. “It is good to see you.” abby answered. 

They went  around the group and prayed. Abby felt a bit out of place. She was a prayer worier. She liked smal group prayer. It worked out. 

“So how do you like our church?”jacky asked. “I like it. It is different form what i am used to but i like it. ” she said. ” we are glad you could come. ” his mom said. 

“So its is nice to see andrew smiling again.  Its has been a long time. “Jacky said. “It certently is.i had a feeling he was still around. ” Andrews’s mom said. 

Abby felt like jacky was reaching out to her. It was so akward. It never occured that liane’s parents might attend the same church that he attended. 

She walked upstairs with Andrews’s mom. “I am so glad you came tonight abby.  I am really looking forward to getting to know you. ” his mom said. “Thank you. I am looking forward to getting to know you. “Abby said.

“He really is smiling again. He totaly shut down after liane died. He was stil existing.  He is himself again. I missed the old andrew.  I know it cant be easy for you. “His mom said. “Not always.  I think the world of your son. I really do. I care about him a great deal. ” abby said. “I know that. ” she said. 

As they neared the sanctuary his mom wispered something in her ear. “Abby! Welcome to the family!” his mom told abby. Abby smiled. “Thank you!” abby said. 

She saw andrew. She took her hand. He smiled. The pastor closed the meeting.  They were dismissed.  They went to his car. “I am so glad that you came tonight. ” andrew told her. “I am glad i came too. Are you going to come to my church Saturday night?” she asked.  “definitely!  Are you comming to church Sunday night?” he asked. “Yes absolutely! ” she answered. “Awsome! “He said. 

She looked at him. He smilled.”what? ” he asked.  “You are happy aren’t you? ” she asked. He smiled. “I am happy.  I am very happy. Are you ab?” he asked.  She hugged him. “Verry!” she said. 

That saterday they met up just before her church.  He wore a pollo shirt and jeens. She wore a green shirt and denim skirt and sandles. He took her hand and they got in his car. 

They arived and went to the sanctuary.  She talked to friends of hers. She introduced him as her boyfriend.  He was starting to get use to that. He stil felt out of place but hopped that would subside.

He could tell that abby realy liked the worship time. She loved to sing. She loved contemporary style praise and worship music. She was dancing and rasing her hands. He did sing along but did not raise his hands.  

He liked the messege from the pastor.it was a totaly different culture.this was verry foregn to him.he felt that she probably felt the same way. 

She was happy he came. She loved that they were becoming more of a part of eachother’s world. 

That Sunday the pastor found him.”andrew can i talk to you for a minute?” the pastor asked. “Sure!” he said. They went to his office. “Anne’s dad is going to have knee surgery. He is going to be layed up for a couple of months.  All of her siblings have moved away. Her mom is in a nursing home. Anne is going to care for him. That means going to Missouri.  Neither one of us wants to be apart. Do the kids stay hear or go with her? I am thinking about going with her. I talk to the deacons. I would like to have an acting pastor while i am gone. I have not totaly made a decision.  Would you be intetested in asuming the pastoral duties including preaching while i am gone?” he asked.

“Yes i am. I have been considering getting back on the pastoral tract. ” he admited. “I thought you had. It is time to get back on the satle. “Pastor jeff bail said. “If you decide to take a leave i am wiling to help out. ” he said “excellent.  The deacons are all on bored. I am going to talk it over with ann and pray over it. We will keep in touch. ” bail told him. 

End of part 10

Next up 

Andrew works on getting back to preperation for full time ministry. A chance meeting between jacky and abby creates more friction between her and andrew. 

Panic attack part 12

Previously on panic atack

Kristin lost her farther in a car accident.  She was badly injured herself. She had to recover in a long term rehab center.  She has mostly recovered . she is prone to anxiety .

Jack is the son of a pastor. He is training to be a pastor. He is being mentored by his dad. He is serving as a kind of assistant pastor. He has been kept buisy. 

Jack and kristin had a rough start.  They started to date.  Things were starting to take shape between them. There always seem to be a two steps forward, one step back. 

Things had gone incredibly well. They were developing a rythem. At a picnic she realized that this was the anniversary of her dads death. She froze up. She just had to get away. 

He drove her home. She ran inside. “Your home early?”her mom remarked. “You know what today is?” she asked. “Yes. Im sory i did not say anything.  I thought mayby you had remembered and just did not want to talk about it. ” her mom said.

“I can’t believe i forgot about it. ” she said. ” its ok hunnie. It is bond to happen. Ita ok to have a life. ” she said.” i know that. I just have to process all of this. ” kristin said. “I understand. ” her mom said. 

Kristin decided to go upstairs. She went up to her bedroom. She cluched on to an old stuffed bear. Her dad gave it to her when she was young. He won it for her from one of those claw machines.  She hugged it. 

The bear had become a memory . it stayed near her bed. When she was hospitilized, ashly brought her some things from home. She cluched on to the bear. When she was little she named it henry. 

When she woke up from the coma,henry became a constent companion again. 

She remembered waking up. She was obivous at first.  She became startled. Ashley,  her mom and her sister janey were there. ” kris its ok. Your safe!” ashly said.

“Where am i?” she said. She saw that was wearing a hospital gown. She saw that she was hooked up to iv and other wires. “Hunnie you are at Jenson rehabitation center. You were in a really bad acident. ” her mom told her. 

She stated to remember. The events that led up to the crash started to come back. “Where is dad?” she demanded to know. “Sweetheart lets take this one step at a time!” her mom said. ” where is dad?  I have to know!” she incisted. 

“Hunnie he did no make it. ” her mom told her. She started to cry.  She held on to her mom. Her mom held her close. That night she held on to her bear. 

It did not really sink in that he was gone until she was relesed. He kept a couple of coats in the foyer. They were gone.  It really sunk in then.  

Everyone else had been had time to let things sink in. It had been four mounths sense the accident.  For her,it felt like it had just happened.they had had a smal commital service with just the family. After kristin felt better they had a momorial service. She was stil in the rehab center but got a day pass. The memories flooded back. 

He was not sure what to do. Should he call her or just wait for her to call him. He missed her. He was having a such a good time with her and then it was over. He wanted to get back to that moment. He wished there had been a way to stop the date from ending. 

He had no way to know if he was in love. He did not know if falling in love was a real thing.  He felt something for her. He grew closer to her. Now it was over. He just wanted to talk to her. 

He did not hear from her that night. He decided not to try to contact her. He would see her at church the next day. At least he hoped she would be there.  

She styaed in her room more of the day. Her mom and sisters kept checking up on her just to make sure that she was ok. She assured them she was. 

He was teaching sunday school and did not get to talk to her before his class began. After the class was concluded,he went over to her. He sat down next to her. 

” on a scale of one to ten, how mad are you at me?” she asked. “I am not mad. I am upset. I want you to trust me. I want you to let me in. I really want to be a part of your suport syistom. I respect your mom and sisters but i hope to become your suport syistom. Your holding back and i dont know why. I want to be there for you. I feel like your not letting me. ” he told her. 

“I explained  to you  that i need my space. I have to fight my own battles.  It is importent to me that i prove to myself i can. You said you understood.” she said. 

“I do understand.  When i become your husbend i want to be there for her.  It is not a questione of can you fight your own battles. You are the bravest person i know.  You should not have to. Juat because you can go it alone does not meen that you should. ” he said.

” this probably is not the time or the place for this discussion. ” she told him. ” your probably right. ” he said. They were silent for a few minutes. Then the pastor started the service. 

After the service, “look i will see you around.  ” she said. “Ok. Call me if you want to .” he told her. She left the sancuary. He wanted to walk her to her car but she did not apear to want that. 

He had a dificult after noon. He realy missed her. He wished he could talk to her. He just did not think that was possible.  

That night he hoped to see her. She never came in . he saw ashly and diane. “Jack. Kristen has decided to stay home tonight. ” diane said. ” oh ok. ” he said.

He tried not to be distracted. He tried to focus. He found it hard to do so. He was able to pay attention mostly. 

 Monday night his phone went off. He saw that it was from Kristen.  ” hey krissy !” he said. “Hi jack. I do this thing where i just drive around in order to clear my head. You want to come along with me?” she asked.

“Ok sure. ” he said. “I will be over in a couple minutes?” she said. “Sure. ” he answered. He went to the porch. Her green jeep pulled in. He went inside.

He hugged her. She held on to him.”look im realy sorry. I just shut down.  ” she said. “I know. I figured that. I love her krissy. I am hear for you. I promise you that. ” he told her.

“I know that. Thank you. ” she said. She drove off. “So you go for drives often?” he asked. She smiled and said,”yes i do. I love driving.  This helps me clear my head. I could not wait to get my lisence. When i was hospitilized my lisence was yanked. I had to go though a milion hoops to get it back. ” she said.

“I did not really want to get my lisence.  I was the oldest of ‘forty kids ‘so my parents incisted i get my lisence. I did. ” he said. 

“My mom hates when i do this. I love driving. I feel free when i do this. I can forget everything. I can live hear. ” she said.

“She lets you do this?” he asked. “I am an adult. She does not like it. Sometimes she keeps caling me. I would not answer but i fear she might send out the search party. I told her where i go. I told her you were coming. ” she said. 

“Oh i see. I am your chaperone? ” he said.  “A little bit. I do want you hear. ” she said. “I know. ” he said. 

They drove to a field. She stoped. They got out. They looked around. “I love this spot. I like to just stand hear.i find i do my best thinking hear.”she said. 

“What’s on your mind kris?” he asked.”i should have moved on by now. Everytime i do, the menories flood back. I dont know how to deal with it. ” she said. 

“Let me in krissy. I want to be your very best friend.  I want to be your partner . i care about you more then i can describe.  ” he said. “I know that. I do trust you. ” she assured him.

After talking for a bit they went to the car. They drove around for a bit. She pulled back into his driveway.  “So have you gone on these drives sence we got together?”she asked. “Yes i have .” she said. ” i figured. Thank you for inviting me along. ” he said.”thank you for comming. ” she said. They hugged. They said goodnight.
  End of part 12

Next up kris relationship with her old churches thretends her relationship with jack. 

Wedding party part six 

Four days until the wedding

With the progress made the day before,tracy decided to begin work at nine. Tracy was up at 7:30. She put the cofee on. 

Amber heared someone up. She gaused that it was probably tracy. She came down stairs. “Morning sunshine!” tracy said. ” i knew that you weref up. ” amber said.

“So # thoughts are swiming in my head. I am surprised i got this much sleep. ” tracy said. Amber laughed. 

“This is all going to come together trace. It is going to be a great wedding. One you will never forget!” amber assured her. 

 “You had better keep in touch amber. ” tracy said. “I mwill.” amber said. “He cares abourt you. ” Tracy said. “I know he does. Odd he did not like me for the longest time. ” amber said.

“He is a private person. He always has been. He is not one to wear his heart on his sleve. You are special to him. There is nothing he would not do for you. ” tracy said. “I have never doubted that. ” she said. 

Matt woke up at 7:30.  He took a shower and got ready to go. He got in his car.  He headed to the home of his parents.  He parked and went inside. 

He went inside. “You dont look awake? ” tracy commented. ” i am noy but i am getting there. ” he said. He got a cup of cofee. 

After a while Steven arived. They had breakfast then got ready to go to the church. They arived at the church.  

Tracy took inventory of what was done the day before.  She looked at what was accomplished the day before in order to plan where to go from there.  

She then went upstairs and looked at the sanctuary.  She looked at her floor plan. She looked at the posters and decorations that had already been made. He started to make a list of things to get done. 

Tracy called a meeting. Everyone met in the foyer. “Are you alowed to call a meeting tracy?”matt asked. “Probably not. Can you call a meeting? “She asked. He laughed. “Ok people!  Gather around. ” he said.

All of a suden matt got weapy. He remebered his dad calling family meetings. The meetings were usualy getting ready to go somewhere manny times on vacation. He tried to hide the tears. He did not wear his heart on his sleve. 

“Ok so tracy what is the plan for the day? ” he asked her. “Ok i want the guys to work on the latice work for down stairs felowship hall. We will continue making decorations.  ” tracy said. 

Amber walked with matt as he walked outside.  “You ok matt?” she asked.  “Yea im ok. I thought about a phrase dad used to use. It took me by surprise.  Its bound to happen this week. ” he said.

They neared the door. She hugged him. “Hold on to those memories. Dont forget the good times. ” she told him. “Ok! I wont. Thank you. ” he told her. She huged him tightly before letting him go. “I will talk to you later.” she said. “You got it. ” he said. 

Steve and matt got to work on the lattice work. They got to work making tracy’s dream a reality. They set up what would be a gate around the tables in the fellowship hall. There would be a gazebo like structure near the end table. This was where the wedding party would come in. They could have there pictures taken there. 

They got several structure built and then would bring it down stairs. From there they would set up and interconnected.  The gazebo was the hard part. The platform was set up first downstairs. Then the rest was built outside and then brought downstairs. This kept the guys buisy. 

The girls worked on decorations and posters and sutch. The kid’s mom arived with there younger siblings at ten. They worked on various decorations and the like. 

Down stairs things were really shaping up. Amber came downstairs to him. “Matt is toasted cheese sandwitches and tomato soup ok?” amber asked. “Yea thats great. ” he answered. ” great. We are getting ready to lunch. This looks really good. Tracy will love it. ” she said.

“You like it?” he asked. “I really do. You are going to have to work on ny wedding. ” amber said. “We will see about that. Do i have to pray over it first?” he asked. “Yes it must be blesed with tounges. ” she said. ” oy veh!” he said. She laughed. “I will be back when lunch is ready! ” she said. 

He found himself tensing up. The thought of her getting maried. He knew she would get maried. She would be a great wife. He was fully confident that she would get maried.he just did not want to think about. 

Eventually she would meet someone. Probably penticostal. Probably someone at the college she worked at.he got sad. He wanted her to marry him. He went from disliking her to becoming cordial but stil dissent.  From cordial to friendly acquaintance.  Then they became friends. He develped a crush on her but he never mentioned it. They had moved on. She was on the other side of the united states with a life of her own. Things were different now. He would have to accept that.

What he did not know was that she was thinking the same thing. At first he was simply tracy’s brother. She did not give him much thought. Then she realized that he did not like her. Then they came at peace with eachother. Then they became friends in time. She liked him. She never told him. 

She did not the thought of marying someone that was not him. She equally did not like the idea of him marying someone else. She dreaded going back west. This was her home. She knew that she would head back to the west coast after the wedding.

When dinner was ready,  amber got everyone.  They eat in the halway.  Amber sat next to matt of course. “Hi there!” she said. He laughed.  ” hi amber!” he said. 

“Things are coming together.  ” amber said. “They are realy are. I am glad that is. ” he said. “We will all be tired out come sunday but thats ok. ” she said.  “I have a feeling that is true. ” she said. 

After dinner the guys got back to work on the latice work. The girls continued to work on decorations. 

Tracy went down stairs to look at the felowship hall. She started to cry. “This is beutifull! I love it.  Steve, matt thank you. ” she said. 

They stoped at 5:00. Everyone was tired. They went back to the house. They had supper. 

“What the plan for tomorrow? ” there brother phil asked. “I want to get the felowship hall finished and the halway. We probably should quit at 4:30 . church is at 6:00. ” tracy said. They all agreed. 

“Thursday will be sanctuary.  Friday the caterers arive. We finish everything then rehersial. ” tracy said.”what time are we starting? “Matt asked. ” we will push for eight.  Come by hear at 7:30 cofee will be on at seven. ” Tracy said.

Matt said his goodnight to everyone. Amber walked him to his car. This had become a tradition for them during the week. She hugged him. She watched him leave.

Amber went over to the family matriark. “Hi amber! ” she said. “So how are you doing with all of this?” amber asked. “Its hard. Tracy is my oldest daughter. Seems like yesterday she was a baby.  I am not ready for her to be all grown up. I miss there farther.  I has started to move on but this has brought it all back. ” she said.

“I know it must be hard.  “Amber said.”it is. It would have been any ways. Without him it is hard. I keep looking for him. ” she said. “Im sorry. ” amber said. “Thank you . ” she said.

After a while everyone started to go to bed. The wedding was nearing. They had a lot to do but they had done alot. 

End of part six. 

Next up 

The family works on finising up the felowship hall.  There is the wendsday service. Things continue to develop between matt and amber. 

End of sorrow part 9

Previously on end of sorrow.

Abby a penticostal reaches out to her neighbor. Andrew lost his fiancé just weeks before the weddings.  He was reluctant to agree with it at first.  He finally agred to see her formerly. 

They went to the first resturant they went to. “I had no idea you were planing something like this.” he said.

“Neither did i ! It was kind of an impulse thing. I felt like we should celebrate it. It is a huge milestone for us. ” she said. 

“It really is. It is a new beginning.  ” he said. “I feel that way too. I really like you. I am really excited by the prospects of our relationship.  ” she said.  “I am too. I realy like you. Its nice to have companionship again. Some times you dont realize that you dont have something until you have it. ” he said.

“Its strange, i am always around people. I sometimes keep people at arms laungh. Though i am bubly and a people person, i still tend to be somewhat standoffish. Not with you. I am very comfortable around you. ” she said. 

“I can tell your different around me. I am glad that your feel free when your around me. ” he said. “I really do. ” she told him. 

“You have brought me out of my shell. I am not quite the old me but i am getting closer.  ” he said. “I dont think your mearly as serious  as you let on. I imagine if i gave you a skirt gun , i would be a goner. ” she said. “Yes! You dont want to see me with a skirt gun unless  you have one and a large shield!” he said. 

“You do have a silly side?” she asked. “I do. I am have six siblings. Manny of them are young. You kind of have to be silly. ” he said.

“I have a feeling that you are naturaly silly. “She remarked. “Perhaps! ” he said. They laughed. 

“So are you thinking about getting back to ministry. I know your serving the lord. Have you considered going back to the tract you were on? ” she asked.  “I have. I do still have a desire to start churches. ” he said. “I thought that you did. I know you still preach and teach sunday school. I cant believe the lord wants you to sit on the side lines. ” she said.

“I know your right. ” he said. “As i said on our first date, its time to get back to work. Its time to get out of the funk. ” she said. “I know. I am getting there. I really am getting there. ” he said.”good.  I thought you were. ” she said. 

“Your right i used the mourning as a crutch.  I used it as an excuse.  I got used to being in a funk. It became normal comfortible. ” he said.

“Its understandable.  I am glad you see it that way. I am glad that you are giving it up. I am glad to see your moving on. I have to warn you that i am always blunt. If i disagree with something you will know it.” she said.”i am not surprised. ” he said.

“Having said that i will always keep it private. I will discus it with you in private. ” she said. “I figured. I appreciate that. ” he said. 

” you have a lot of potential.  You have a lot of gifts. I want to see you serving the lord. I want you to live up to that potential. I believe that sometimes the battle is not between right and wrong but between right and somewhat right. Dont settle for good enough. I think you know thats what you been doing. ” she said.

“You are right. That is what i have been doing. Its funy i have preached messages along those lines. I think the old me would have a bone to pick with me. I dont want to settle.  I rally dont. ” he said.

“I know that. I wont let you. I know you will keep me honest as well. ” she said. ” i am on the road back. ” he said.”i know you are. I can see that. ” she said.

“So we discussed the posibility of us one day marrying. We both agreed that we need to go slow. We need to take baby steps. Do you see yourself marrying me. Can you picture it? “She asked. 

“Yes i definitely can. I do want to marry you. ” he told her. “Good . i realy want to marry you. I am downright smitten with you andy. ” she said.

Andrew never considered marying anyone else but liane.  He never dated anyone but liane. She was the only person he had had a romantic involvement with. When he had been young there was a girl he told he wanted to marry. He had no idea what her name was. He bearly remembered the event. 

He never even thought about thanking about someone besides liane. When liane died he really was committed to being single all his life.that commitment became stronger.  Even when he met abby. Even when they started to become closer friends. 

Now he was open to marrying her. He was surprised.  He was not expecting this. He was definitively not seaking it. Never the less, hear it was. 

“Why are you so smiten with me ab? I am ptety boring. I am old fashoned. I dont own a tv. I listen to old hyims and a collection of sacred mysic from my college.  I am a cessationest. I sometimes think i am a little dull. Why me?” he asked.

She laughed.she smiled. “I dont know.  I cant explain it. I just am. I did not plan it. It happened. Your not that dull.  ” she said.  “My ant farm might disagree with you. ” he said. She shock her head. They both laughed.

“So i could ask the same of you.  Why do you like me? I am bubly outgoing. I love to dance, listen to klove, own a tv. I am a bit mischievous at times. ” she said.  

” i love spending time with you. I juat do. I am glad your in my life. ” he said. She smiled. 

After a while they paid then went to the car. Then they headed home. She parked. They got out of the car. “I had a great time tonight. ” he told her. “I did too. This was i hoped tonight would go. This was better really.” she said. He hugged her. They said goodnight and went there temporary separate ways. 

The next morning andrew was suposed to be at work at ten am. He slept in until nine. He had plenty of time but he usualy got ready at a leisurely pace. He showered, drank cofee got ready and left.

He was hatdly late but he was a bit frazzled. He forget to get his phone. His work is  far from his apartment but when he Was at work, he stayed there until his shift was over. 

Despite the dificut start to the day,it went fairly well. He was,whoever happy to be home. He pulled in. Abby was waiting for him. She was wearing jeens whitch usualy ment she was miffed with him.she had been crying.

“Are you upset about something ab?”he asked. “Where have you been?”she asked. “I was at work!”he said.  “Why didn’t you return any of my calls or texts or messages? “She asked. “I was in a rush this morning and left mt phone at home. I dont go home while on lunch breaks. ” he said.

“Why is it every time you and i have a major break though, you have to go backyards.  Why do you have to be so unstable? ” she asked. 

” i am not having doubts about us. I really did leave my phone at home.  “He said.”you live a mile from your home.  Why bot just go get it?”she asked. “I dont like to leave the premises..even on lunch. ” she told him. “I was woried that we were going too fast. I feard you would go inward again. I figured you had.  ” she said. 

“Abby i am ok. I am not having second thoughts about us. “He said. “Do you still feel like your being unfaithful  to liane?”she asked. “I would be lying if i said i did not feel that a little. I know its irational. “He said. 

“When are you going to be afraid of hurting my feelings.  When are you going to be concerned about being faithfull to me? Don’t you dare say when we are maried. If you dont do it now,  you wont do it later.” she said. 

“Your right.your right on all acounts. Abie i do care about you. Your feelings are importent to me.  I am sorry. I gues not consider your feelings today. ” he said.

” your not bound to liane any more. You are free to marry. I know you wanted to be a one women man.  She is gone. She is not going to come back. Your obligation to  her has passed. ” she told her. 

“I know that. ” he said.”i dont want to play second fiddle.  I dont want to be a consolation price. I dont want to win you by default. I feel like i am the runner up who is declared the winner after the predecessor is disqualified.  Look i have dated guys before you. They dont matter to me. You are my soul mate. No one else. You dont see it that way. ” she said.

He hugged her. “Your not a consolation prize. ” he told her. “The truth is if leane was stil alive and you had met me, i would not be an afterthought. ” she said.

She started to cry. He held on to her. “If your going to mary me,you have to let her go. I dont want to compete with anyone especially a ghost. I cant do it. The vows say forsaking all orthers. Thats what i want. ” she said.

“I know and i agree. ” he said. She held on to him. “I was going to surprise you with lunch but i got upset. ” she said. “Its fine. ” he said. “Do you like tuna fish? ” she asked. “I do. ” he said. 

“I will be back. ” she said. “Ok. ” he said. She walked upstairs to her apartment.  A few minutes she came back out with a plate of sandwitches. She had changed into a skirt. They went to a picnic table. 

“Oh you might want to ster clear of the more recent meseges. Im sorry. ” she said.  “I am sory i was inconsiderate. ” he said. ” bring your phone to work tomorrow.  ” she said “will do. ” he said.

End of part 9

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Andrew and abby goes to each others churches. They get more involved in eachothers world. He considers going back on a ministry tract.