End of sorrow part 11

Andrew had been a bible colege student. He was preparing for full time ministry.  That was before his fiancée died. He zoned out for a while. He was withdrawn. He was distent. Many made excuses for him.

Then he met abby. She was bubly. She was outgoing. She would say what was on her mind. She was willing to push him. There were no sacred cows with her. She let him know what was on her mind. 

He was reluctant to date her at first. After a while,he aceepted her. He started to let her in more and more. 

He was starting to consider comming back to the ministry. Now an opportunity to get back to ministry might be presenting itself. Things seemed to going on the right tract. 

After the sunday night service,they went out for cofee. “So. The pastor aproched me today. His farther in law is going to have surgery.  Mrs. Bail is going to care for him. He is considering going with her. He does not want to be seperated from her for that long. He might go with her. He is considering having me take over while he is gone. He is deeply divided over what to do. He seems to be leening towards going. He is devoted to the church and family. I have no idea what he will decide. ” he said.

“It is a tough decison. If he decides to go,are you ready to sub for him?” she asked. “No! Not at all. I believe the lord will give me the strength and wisdom to do the job. Despite penticostal propaganda ,we baptist do believe in the power of the holy sprit. “He said. She laughed.

“I am sad by the reason but i am pleased by the prospect of you being able to get your feet wet. This is a really good opportunity. ” she said.”i feel the same way. It meens a lot that he trusts me.  It seems the deacons like the idea. We will see. ” he said. 

“I imagine you have a flood of surmon ideas?” she asked. “I do! I am not woried about not having anything to preach about. ” he told her. “I did not think you would. ” she said. 

“I will be buisy but thats ok. ” he said.”it is a good buisy. ” she said. “Definitely.  ” he said. “If he decides not to leave for a while you can stil get work towards going into full time ministry. This is an open door. The time is now regardless. You have the suport of paster bail and the deacons. Either way time for complacentcy is over. ” she said.

“I agree. ” he said. “Good!  Because i will keep harping on you. I am not letting you off the hook. ” she said. “I know. I am ready to get back into things. ” he said. “Good. I’m glad. I am realy happy that your getting ready to persue full time ministry.  I really am. ” she said. 

“You are out of your funk?” she asked.”not totaly but i am getting there. I did use my greef as a crutch. I wallowed for far too long. I am sory i did not see it myself. I regret letting it go on for this long. ” he told her. 

“Its my job to kick in the but if you get too complacent. Its your job to admonish me if i get complacent.  We build each other up. I am sure some day it will happen. I am sure you will do the same for me. I see us as a team. Some times we will both be where we should be and we will help keep each other on track. ” she said.  “Ok.” he said. 

They drove home. They got out. He hugged her. They said good night and went insude there homes. 

They continued to attend each orthers church. They got more and more involved in each others lives and worlds.  There are always conflicts in any relationship. It seemed to be the inevtible. That was the case with them. 

It was a Sunday night service. She went into the bathroom. She was washing her hands when she saw jacky.

“Hi abby. ” jacky said. “Hi jacky. “Abby said. “I am realy glad you have been coming hear. Your realy becoming a part of our church.” she said. ” thank you. I realy appreciate that. ” abby told her. “It is nice to see him happy again. His spark is back. ” she said. 

“It must be hard to see him with someone else that is not your daughter. ” abby said. “It is not easy. It is time for him to move on. We see that. You have our suport. Both clark and i feel that way. ” jacky told her. “Thank you. ” abby said. 

“We are fully suportive of you two. We appreciated that andrew went to see clark.  We dont object. He did not need our permison. We were pleased that he told us.  “She said. 

Abby had no idea that he had talked to them about there relationship. “The last thing andrew wanted was to cause you any more pain.  He knows this is difficult. ” abby said. “Yes. It will be regaress. Both clark and i are suportive of you and andrew. Lee would want him to be happy. She would not have wanted to see him as he was. ” jacky said.  

“I am glad to see him slowly coming out of the rut he was in. ” abby said. “So am i. I realy like you. I am glad that you are in his life. ” she said. They left the bathroom. 

She wanted to run away. Of course she came in his car. She went back to the sancuatury. She was upset but tried to hide it. This was not the time or the place.  She waited. 

They went to the car after the service. “Want to go out for cofee?” he asked.”not tonight.  I am eiger to getting home. I am tired. ” she said. “You ok hun?” he asked. ” im fine!” she said.

The drive home was unrealistically qiet. He parked the car. They got out. “Why did you ask Clark’s permison to date me?” she asked.  “I did not ask him permison.  I mearly told him that we were an item. He had seen us at the church picnic. He and jacky were bound to see us . it is a small church. It was a curtisy. I wanted to make sure they were ok with it. I did not want to flaunt it. ” he said. 

“So you never ask his permison?”abby asked. “No i did not. I just wanted there to be no resentment of there part. ” he said.”do you think they may have interpreted it as asking of permission? ” she asked.

“They might have i supose. I did not intend it that way. ” he told her. “If they had had a problem with it, would you have stoped seing me?” she asked. “I did not think about it. I did not forese that hapening. I assumed that they saw that enough time had passed. I did not consider the posibility that they would have objections. ” he told her.

“Lets say they did object. What would you do?” she asked.  “I dont know. ” he said. “Not the right answer andy! ” she said. “Your mad at me about this?”he asked. “A little bit. ” she said.”why? I did not want to upset them. They have been though a lot. “He said. “Me being upset is ok?” she said. “No of course not. ” he said. “You did not even think about me. You were never maried to leane. Death do us part does not aply. If it did death did you part. Its time to move on. You had no obligation to see them. Your doing nothing wrong.  I am not suggesting we make out in front of them but us living our lives, doing what we normally do. I dont see a problem. I do see you being wiling to be held hostege to people who were never your inlaws is. You seem ok with puting everyone else above me! Thats not ok. ” she said. 

“I did not meen to ofend you.  I did not think you would object!” he said. “If thats true why didn’t you tell me?” she asked.  “I did not think it was a big deal?” he said. “It seems to me you tried to keep it from me. Why are you interested in me feeling sicure in our relationship?  The one thing i need above everything else seems to be the one thing your unwiling to give me.i crave security, stability.  You cant or wont give that to me. I fear either. “She said.

“Did you want me to not talk to them about this?” he asked.  “No i did not.it was unessisary. Its ok to live your life. I think you agree with me. That is why you did not tell me. You knew i would get mad. I am not the most important thing in your life next to Christ.   Leane is. I am not sure you see the lord as more importent then her. You did not even tell me.i was blind sighted. I had to act like i knew.  I could not tell jacky how i realy feel. Nor would i. I feel for them.they are good people. I dont want to add to there greef. Its ok to move on. Dating me is not a sin. Marrying me is not a sin either. Although at thr rate your going that wont be an issue.  “She said 

“I am sory. I did not consider your feelings. ” he said. “Was it that you did not consider my feelings or did you and just  disregarded them. I see intent hear. ” she said. “Ok i gues i knew that you would be unhappy with and did it any ways and covered it up. ” he said. ” well at least you acknowledge it. ” she said .

“You should have told me. I would have been upset. I would have rather heard from you then hear it from her way after the fact. ” abby said. ” i know. ” he said. “There is no room for liane or any one else in team andrew abby. ” she said. “I know that and i agree. ” he said. ” it seems like your more sory you got caught. ” she said. “Thats not thr case ab. ” he said. “I find it hard to believe that andy. Everytime you chose her over me. ” she said. 

“That is  not the case! ” he told her. “Thats what it seams. You care about everyone elses feelings but myine.i resent it. ” she said. “I do care about you. ” he said. “I want to believe you but i have been burned by you too many times. ” she said.

“Did you realy want me to say nothing?” he asked. “Yes! Your obligation to them has passed. Your doing nothing wrong. Its ok to be happy.  ” she said. “I only did out of respect. “He said.

“The fact that you hid it from me tells me you knew it might upset me. You went out of your way to hide this. ” she said.

“I felt that i should talk to them. ” he said. “I know that had they objected,you would have left me. She is your soul mate not me. If she were alive and we had met before you two wed, i would not have had a chance. Your my soul mate. I cant remember those who i dated before me. Why? Because they dont matter. Look im upset. I am going to say things i will regret. I think we should call it a night. ” she sugested. “Ok! Good night.” he said.

They started to disperse. “Wait. I am mad at you but i do love you. I dont want the last thing i say to you tonight to be anything but that!, she said.  He hugged her. “I love you ab!, he answered. 

They went to there house. They had a lot to work out. 

End of part 11

Next up

Pastor bail makes a decision regarding rather or not to go with his wife to be with her dad. Abby and andrew try to work things out. 

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Panic attack part 13

Previously on panic attack.

Jack was traning for the ministry.  He had been a bible student student.  He was now being mentored by his father. Jack was heavily involved in the church. He was a defecto assistant asistent pastor. He sat in on deacons meetings.  

While many bible schools were the places where young men trained for the ministry met there spouse. That did not happen for jack. Jack graduated without finding the future mrs. Rayburn. 

Then he met Kristen.  A young women that capitivated him. He liked her almost immediately. She was reserved at first.  She withdrew from him. 

She was injured in a car accident a few years erlier. Her farther was killed. She was in a coma and then had a long convalescence and rehabilitation.  She bounced back with help from her mom and sisters.

It left scars visible and invisible. She sufers with anxiety and depression.  She was prone to panic attacks. She was reluctant to date him at first. she then agreed. 

It was difficult relationship at times.there was advance folowed by retreat.  It seemed to be circuler. It was advance,retreet, repeat. It could be frustrating at time. His affection for her grew and grew. Despite the difficulties he realy liked her. 

He felt like she  had let her in.  He loved that he showed how she couped with things. She had ler her in.  He felt like going with her for a drive helped him understand her. It was a huge breakthough.

His parents had invited the chairman of the deacons bored over for dinner. Dr. Wendel bears was a former missionary to kenya. He and his wife had returned to the us. They were rited from the misson field not from christian service. There children moved out and had children of there own. 

After dinner the men were outside on the porch. “So you and kristin are an item?” dr. Bears asked. ” yes we are. ” he said. “She seams like a very nice young lady. She is qiet. Reserve. ” the older man. “She is very nice. ” he said. 

“She seams to have qualities that are complimentary to someone who is working towards entering the ministry.  “Dr. Bears said. “I have observed that as well sir. ” jack told the older man. 

“I do,however have some concerns. ” he said. “Ok! What are those concerns sir? ” jack asked. “Well prior to the car crash that took the life of mr.greener and injured kristin they attended redemption Baptist church .after the acident they left r.b.c and attended quite a few different churches some independent fundamental baptist and some more evangelical and seaker sensitive.  I dont know the circumstances of there departure from those churches.  They seem to have for lack of a better term church shopped.  They dont apear to be tethered to a church or teather to a doctrine.  It may be nothing. Sense i am at your home and can talk to you freely.  I did want to mention it.” dr. Bears said. 

“Do you see it as a red flag?” he asked. “Potentialy but not necessarily.  I know pastor broaden and several people ay r.bc.they were a suporting church. It is a good church. I cant believe anyone would up and leave after a tragedy.  Things happen i suppose.  ” the older man said.

Jack had a feeling he knew why they left. He suspected that it had something to do with the fact that kristin is on antidepressants and under the care of psychologists. 

“I was not sure where they attended before coming to gospel Baptist.  It never came up. Talking about things in and around the event is difficult. ” jack said. 

“Of course. I am not trying to alter your decison to court mis grener. I wantes to bring it to your attention. I consider pastor broaden to be faithful servent of tehe lord. The fact that they roam form church to church is a bit problematic. “Dr. Bears said. 

“It could be.”he admitted.  “During courtship it is a good idea to have. Plenty of information.  We must gather information. Even facts we dislike.  I am hardly saying you should not court her but dont rush into things.”he said. 

Later that night. “You and doctor bears had an intense conversation!” pastor rayburn remarked. “Dr. Bears has some concerns. It seemed kristin and her family has switchedcuhurches a lot. She used to go to pastor broaden’s church.” he said. “I was not aware that they attended lee’s church. I hope i did not steal his sleep.” his dad said. “They have gone to a few sence then. Thats what i have heard.  I have not gotten any confirmation of that from her. “Jack said. 

“I see. What was the nature of dr. Bear’s concern?”his dad asked.”he was concerned that her family church shops. They are not committed to a church. “Jack said. 

“There could be reasons for it.”his dad said. “I think i know why. She takes meds for anxietyand depression. She is under a psychologist care. “Jack said. 

“You knew? “He asked. “Yes she was woried what how you would react. I figured we should figure it out on our react. She is on some prety serious anti dupresents. She canot just go off some of them. ” he said. 

“Jack i wish you had said something.”his dad said. “I know.  I just wanted a chance to figure all this out. “Jack said. “I understand that you want to protect kristin. You are a leader in the church. You do have responsibilities. “He said. “I know that.”he said. 

“They are not curently members. We can ask attenders not to come. We have had to do that in the past. ” pastor rayburn said. “Is church disipline warented hear?”jack asked. “I dont know.  We as a church did not ask them not to see a psychologist or not to take anti anxiety meds. Perhaps it is best not to temper with it. “His dad said. 

“I would like to visit pastor broaden.  Ask him about it. “Jack said.” ok. Jack the bible says that God goves some pastor, teachers, evengelists etc. They are to watch souls. They must give acounts. If they were asked to cease and desist and did not, it is a concern. ” the pastor said. 

“I understand. I agree. I am sory i did not tell you.”he said. “I accept your apology. Talk to pastor broaden. You might want to consider slowing down your relationship with her.” he said.”perhaps.  “Jack said. 

“Look we will see what hapends with lee broaden. Find out what happened at redemption baptist. Then we will go from there.”he said. 

He usualy called kristin but did not call her tonight.  He read in the bible as was his Tradition . his phone went off. He picked it up. “Hello!” he said. 

“Hi you did not call tonight! ” she commented.  “I had a long day.  I worked and then dr. And mrs bears came over. ” he told her.

“Oh ok. Its just not like you. You always call. ” he said. “I know . ” he said. “Is something up?” she asked. “No, nothing is up .” he said. “Your sure? ” she asked. “Yea. ” he said.”ok. I will let you go. Get some sleep. I will talk to you later. ” she said. “Ok.”he said. “I love you!” kristin said. “I love you. “He said. 

The next day he went to the nearby town of riverview. He drove to redemption baptist church. He went inside. “Hello pastor broaden. ” jack said. “Helo. Wait a minute! Your john rayborn’s son. ” he said. “It is good to see you sir. ” he said. 

“I remember when you were a little kid. ” he said. “I am all grown up now.” he said. “It seems so. ” he said.

“I am courting kristin grenner. I had some questions about her family’s attendance at your church. ” he said.”oh i see. Come this way. ” he said.

They went to his office. They sat down. “The greners came to my church sense kritin was young. I went fishing and hunting with rick.  My daughters and kristin were freinds. Kristin and her sisters spent many days at my house. We were devisated when rick was killed and kristin injured. Diane’s philosophy seemed to be two structures. Faith and medicine.  Like max plank she seemed to beleve that never the twain shal meet. She took everything the doctors said as fact. She alowed kristin to be treated with strong dosege of anti dipresents. Kristin was under the care of a psychologist that beleves in things contrary to the word of God. We expresed our concerns. Myself and the deacons felt we were not taken seriously.  Her arguments against our views did not take into account the bible. It was Diane’s decision to leave the church. We were sad to see them go. I was unaware that they were going to your church. They went to a mega church for a while. I know they went to a reformed church for a while then a middle of the road baptist church.  I had lost touch. ” he said.

“I did not know this.  This is concerning. ” he said. “I dont want to dissuade you from courting kristin. As i sad i knew you when she was little. I do have concerns. ” he said. 

 He went to barea Baptist church. He pulled in. He went to the office of the pastor. “Helo im jack rayburn. I am an assistant pastor at gospel baptist church. I had some questions about kristin grenner and her family. They are attending our church. ” he said.

“I liked the greners. They seem to be adjusting to our church. Kristin was part of our worship team. She played the keyboard and was a vocal as well.  They came to our church thinking that we were a bit more moderate then the churches they previously attended.  We use contemporary praise music, we are less strict on dress and so on.  We were however. On the same page on the isue of anti dipresents and seculer psychologist. We felt that diane put the views of secueler medical professionals above the word of God or sprituel leaders. She decided to leave. I was sory to see them go. I am suprised they returned to a fundamental baptist church. “Pastor eric tilson said. 

He went back to car. Before he could get into to his car his phone went off.he did not check his caller i.d. he just answered it. “Hello.” he said. “Jack i drop by the parsonage but you were not there. Where are you? ” kristin asked. “I am in riverview!” he said.  “What are you doing in riverview? ” she asked. ” i am on church business.  I am heading home.” he said. “Ok. Do you want to hang out tonight?”she asked. “Not tonight. I have some church business i need to go over with my dad.    It might take a while. ” jack said. “Oh ok. Well i will talk to you later. ” she said.”ok. ” he said. “I love you!” she said “i love you too. ” she said. Then the call ended. 

At home he told his dad what he learned. “I see. What concerns me is that they seem to put human wisdom and science falsly so called as superceding the bible and pastoral authority. They seem to  ignore pastors and deacons.  When presed they leave. ” his dad said.

“Kristin was 17 when the acident accured. Though she had graduated high school,she was still a minor when the crash occured. She was under her moms gaurdienship. She had little say. She might not have had a lot of options then. Once on some of these meds it is unwise to get off of them.” jack said. 

“I realize that jack. Kristin was initialy in no condition to protest. Kristin has been taught directly or indirectly that the church is a part of your life. A social club.it is not that inportent. It is a box in a series of boxes that make up a person. It is not an all emcompising thing that charecterizes life. God works though the church. The church is our identity.  A matryr when totured did not say his name. When asked his name he said he was a christian. We canot separate our identity from the body of christ. God gave pastors teachers evangelist for the equipping of the sants.  I am disturbed that there default posistion when think get tough is to leave. I fear we are a blip. Eventualy they would have left our church. They stil may. They are no committed to any one church or mayby not any one set of principles.  It would be unsafe for her  come off that medication.  No doctor would alow it. I Am not telling you to break up with her. You may want to talk to her about all this. “He said.  

“I realy like her dad. “He said. “I do too. So does your mom. This might not be a good idea. ” he said. “Would you be opposed to my continuing to see her?” he asked. “No. I hope you will think about this. Realy make sure she is the one.” he said. “Do you thibj she is not?” he asked. “I dont know. She is a nice young lady. These new facts give me pause.  ” his dad admitted.  

The mext day he called her. “Hi kristin are you going to be home today?” he asked.  “Yea. ” she answrred. “Can i come over? I wont stay long.  I wanted to talk to you about something. ” he said. “Ok. Sure come over. ” she said. 

He drove in. She came out. She wrnt over to hug him but he retreated.  She disengaged. They sat on thr steps. He left a distence between them. 

“What’s up?” she asked.  “I want to take a break. I want to revaluate our relationship.  I think we need some time apart. “He said.

“Is this because of my medication?”she asked. “Partially.  I know you have bounced from church to church. Your mom does not apear to believe in church leadership. Your not tethered to gbc or to i.f.b doctrine.” he said.

“How do you know all this? ” she asked. “I talked to pastor broaden and pastor tilson. ” he said. “Thats why you were in riverview?” she asked. “Yea.” he asked.

“You said break not breakup.  Your thinking about caling us off?” she asked. “Yes i supose i am. ” he said. “Dont you like us as a couple?” she asked. “Of course i do. You know i enjoy being with you. ” he said. “I thought you did. Look you  shoud go. “She said. “Alright. Good day kristin.  ” he said. He walked away. 

 End of part 13

Next up kristin and jack go there separate ways or do ?

Wedding party part 7 

Three days until the wedding.

 The day of the wedding got closer. Things were comming together. The church was shaping up. There was still much to do. 

The night before ,tracy ,amber and her mother conplied a list of things left to do. They put together a time table of when they wanted to get it done.

Tracy and amber got up fairly early. This had been there tradition thoughout the week. They got thr cofee ready.  Her mom came down the stairs. Tracy and amber said helo to her. 

“Mom! I know i have got a little out of hand this week. ” tracy said.”your excited about your upcoming wedding.you should be.its understandible.” her mom said. 

“How are you doung with all this?” tracy asked her mom. “Its been hard.it has been a little bit of an emotional roller coaster. I am ok. ” she said.

“I have wanted to talk to you about this.  I have been a bit self involved. I wanted to check up on you. ” tracy said.

“This week i have definently felt his absence. It is unavoidable. I knew it would.  I am not just thinking about the fact he is not hear. I have been thinking about the good times. ” she said. “There have been Manny? ” Tracy said. She smiled. “There have indeed.  ” her mom told her. 

“Its hard to see you growing up. Going on your own. I am proud of you trace. ” she said. Tracy huged her.”thanks mom. That meens alot. ” she said.

“You! Miss amber you beter not be a stranger! ” she told amber. “I wont. I will definently visit. I will keep in touch via phone and social media.  You cant get rid of me that easily.” amber said. “Good!” Tracy’s mom said. 

After a while matt arived.  He got some cofee.  “Hi mom. Hi trace hi amber.” he said.they all said hi back.he huged his mom. He huged her sister . it was unclear if he did this out of a paturn but he huged amber as well. Neither realized tbat they were hugging until they were well into it. They were both a little embarrassed.  Neither one really regretted it though. 

Neither one knew what to say.they both tried to move on from that action. Hopefully mom and tracy could overlook it.

Steve arived as well. Tracy and steve hugged. They had breakfast.then they left for the church. They all got together near the front of the church. They asembled for the morning brefing as it were. 

” ok midweek service is at 6:00. We need to stop at 4:30.  We have a lot to get done and not a lot of time to do it in.  ” matt said. 

“I want to have the dining hall today. We will need to tidy it up friday.the caterers wil arive. I want what we can get done now done today. Tomorrow we will push hard on the sanctuary.  I would love for downstairs to be totaly done.” tracy said. 

“I think we can. I just wanted to press that point.” he said. He led in prayer then they got to work. 

Matt and Steve finished up working on the lattice work.  They finished up the gate and made a door. The decorations on the wall was finished up. A cd player was brought in. During the reception,they would play instrumental sacred music. 

They put the finishing touches of downstairs felowship hall. Decorations were placed in the coridors as well. 

While decorarions and lattice work for the auditorium began. They started to lay the groundwork.  They would not set it up today but they would have it all ready to go the next day.  The more done today the better was the mood of everyone involved.  

They did some cleaning up and vacuming as well. Usualy the dining hall was used as prayer room on wendsday. Today upstairs room would be used. 

Alot had been accomplished.  Things were about where tracy wanted them to be. They had everything ready for the service and the work for the next days. The big push would occur Thursday and friday. There waa a rehearsal dinner held at there mom’s house and then the rehersial. Everything had to be done before then. Time would be of the essence.  Crunch time would be on Thursday morning. 

They left at four thirty.  They went home for supper. After dinner,they all got ready for the service. Amber went with him to the church.  They took some of the younger kids. 

As pastor , matt preached.  He got to the podium. ” i want to preach tonight on the unchanging God. Hebrews tels us that God is the same yesterday, today and foever. Our lord is consistent.  He is a God of order. He is a God of structure. Sometimes we read leviticus and we can get bodged down. The purpose of the book of leviticus to saw God is a God of order.he ordaned that israel his chosen nation would have distict laws. Thes laws are extensive.  It shows a system a structure. Some of these laws were ceremonial. God still has structure. Some cerimonial laws are not observed. Others are stil in place.  Murder is stil murder for example. ” he said.

“God is holly. Peater qaoting from the old testament said,’be holy for i am holy. ‘ God is holly is a concept that goes all the way from genises to revelation.  He is different. He is set apart. ‘numbers. 23:9 said ‘God is not a man that he should lie.nor the son of man that he should repent. ‘ God does not lie. That does not change. God is truthful.  Jesus said that he is the way truth and the life. Jesus also said that the truth will make you free. It is not just truth in general. The truth of who he is. ”

“We see that his promises do not change. He promised abraham that he would be a great nation. His seed will outnumber the stars. There was a belief that the covenant God made with Moses whitch was a conditional covenant superseded the Abrahamic covenant.  Paul in galations said that could not be further from the truth. On the cross jesus declared that it is finished. The author of hebrews said that christ is the author and finishers of our faith.  He has promised to never leave us or forsake us. We trust him because we see evidence of his unchanging nature. ” 

“I take comfort in his unchanging nature. I love his consistency.  We see that the lord if a person of his word. We live in an  unchanging world. Circumstances change. There are events we canot forsee. He loves us. He knows what is best for us. This church has changed. It started as a church of two families meeting at a laundry mat in to this building. My dad is now with the lord. Tracy is about to start her jouney. I know that God has an overal plan. I trust in that.i am thankfull for it.”matt said.  

The men and women separated into groups. After the prayer time the guys talked for a bit. ” so who is next to get maried in your family?” Charlie a deacon asked.  “I want to get though this wedding.  Probably joel or Philip.  Perhaps merisa. ” he said.

“Not our young pastor? ” an older man named henry asked. “It could happen i supose. Right now i do not forsee it but i gues it could happen.  ” he said.

“You and that young lady who is Tracey’s maid of hournor is not the future mrs pastor davis?” charlie asked. He blushed a bit. “The lord knows what is best. I am sure that if i am to be maried ,it will be the best choice.” he said. 

Amber prayed with tracy,her mom and a few other ladies. “We are so excited for this wedding! ” elsa an older lady said. ” thanks. We are too. “Tracy said.

“It is really coming together.  “Tracy mom said.”i can see that.” the older lady said. “So who is the nect Davis to be maried? ” another lady asked. ” i think the pastor is the next davis child who will be maried. ” tracy said. Amber tried not to blush. 

“I can see that. ” amber said. They laughed. Amber was surprised that tracy said that. 

When they walked back upstairs amber talked to tracy. “You realy think that matt will get maried next ?”amber asked.  “I realy do! ” she answered. 

After a closing remarks thr service was concluded. The davis returned to her house. Matt sat on the porch. Amber came out. ” lost in thought? ” amber asked. ” a little! Tonight was the last time our family in its current form will go to church. So Manny changes.  Seems like yesterday i played in the dirt over there. ” he said.

“I cant imagine you playing in the dirt.” amber said. “I loved playing in the dirt. I loved playing with toy trucks. One of the advantages of having young brothers is i can play with trucks with them. Of course when they go down for a nap i have to stop. ” he said. 

“I wont tell anyone? ” amber said. He laughed. “Alright! ” he said.”i loved your mesege tonight.  I know it was from the heart!” she said. “I had trouble coming up with a messege . i was a bit distracted.  My message camebout of my feelings. It started comming together.  ” he said.” i know the lord will use it. ” amber said. “I definently hope so. I too believe it will.” he said.

“You ok?” she asked. “Yes i am. I am just feeling melancholic.  I think i am just tired. I am happy how the wedding preperation is going. I think it is exhaustion.  ” she said. ” ok.i just wanted to make sure. ” she said. 

After a while matt decided to go to his place. He was ready for bed. Amber walked him to his car. He hugged her. “Good night!” he said. “Goodnight!” she said.

End of part 7

Next up

As the push to get the church ready for the wedding go into high gear, amber and matt consider there future. 

End of sorrow part 10

The next day , Andrew woke up. He got ready for work. Today he made sure he brought his phone.  He texted her before he clocked in. “Good morning ab. I miss you.  I hope you have a good day. ” he told her. 

She saw the text after she woke up.she smiled. She texted him back. “Good morning babe. I miss you too.hope you have a great day. Talk to you in a bit. ” she told him in her text.

They texted back and forth though out the day.  He did not carry his cell phone while he was working. He checked his phone on his breaks.  They corresponded all thoughout his shifts on his off time.  

She could not help wondering if he realy liked texting her? She feared he might just be overcompensating for yesterday.  She knew he liked her. Was he Just lonely?  She wanted him to be wowed by her. He was just not there. 

He calked her on his lunch break. “Hi hunnie, tonight is my churches midweek service. It is usualy a message folowed by prayer time. The men and women split up.  Want to come? ” he asked. 

“Yes. Sure. ” she said. “Great. It starts at six. ” he said. “Ok. Sounds good. ” she said. When she hung up the phone.  She started to have seccond thoughts. She did not know anyone besides andrew. She had talk to his mom and sisters. Probably she could pray with them. 

Then something else occured to her. Clark and jacky would be there. Would they be ok with her being there. Would they be uncomfortable seing the man who almost became there son in law with someone else. What if jacky was in her prayer group. This could be really akward. 

They were becoming close. If they decide to get maried this will probably become there home church. She would have to get though the awkwardness eventually any ways. Why not start now? 

She decided not to burden andrew with her anxiety. The fact he invited her was a huge step. He wanted her in his world. He was letting her in. She was glad of that. She wanted to be in his world.  She figured that this was as good a time as any to get though the awkwardness.  

 She met up with him right before the service. She wore a pink shirt and pink skirt and sandles. “Do i look independent fundamental Baptist enough? “She asked. “Your fine. Everyone knows your penticoastal. Well baby gracie might not but everyone else does. “He said 

“Do i send out chariamatic vibes or did you tell them?”she asked. “It came out.  “He said. They got into his car. They drovde on to church. 

“Are you nervous abby?”he asked. “A little.”she said. “You have been hear before. We are all one family. “He tried to assured her. She did not want to say anything but that was what worried her. 

He parked the car. They went inside. She tried not to be nerved on. She knew that she was.  They walked inside.  Most everyone remembered her from the picnic. She figured out very early on that this was a friendly church. She would become very close with manny in the church. 

She liked the pastor’s message.  She was not sure what to do. Andrews’s mom invited her to join her and two of his sisters..she folowed them downstairs.  

Jacky jouned there group. “Hi its abby right?”she asked. “Yes. Your jacky? “She asked. “It is good to see you again.” jacky remarked. “It is good to see you.” abby answered. 

They went  around the group and prayed. Abby felt a bit out of place. She was a prayer worier. She liked smal group prayer. It worked out. 

“So how do you like our church?”jacky asked. “I like it. It is different form what i am used to but i like it. ” she said. ” we are glad you could come. ” his mom said. 

“So its is nice to see andrew smiling again.  Its has been a long time. “Jacky said. “It certently is.i had a feeling he was still around. ” Andrews’s mom said. 

Abby felt like jacky was reaching out to her. It was so akward. It never occured that liane’s parents might attend the same church that he attended. 

She walked upstairs with Andrews’s mom. “I am so glad you came tonight abby.  I am really looking forward to getting to know you. ” his mom said. “Thank you. I am looking forward to getting to know you. “Abby said.

“He really is smiling again. He totaly shut down after liane died. He was stil existing.  He is himself again. I missed the old andrew.  I know it cant be easy for you. “His mom said. “Not always.  I think the world of your son. I really do. I care about him a great deal. ” abby said. “I know that. ” she said. 

As they neared the sanctuary his mom wispered something in her ear. “Abby! Welcome to the family!” his mom told abby. Abby smiled. “Thank you!” abby said. 

She saw andrew. She took her hand. He smiled. The pastor closed the meeting.  They were dismissed.  They went to his car. “I am so glad that you came tonight. ” andrew told her. “I am glad i came too. Are you going to come to my church Saturday night?” she asked.  “definitely!  Are you comming to church Sunday night?” he asked. “Yes absolutely! ” she answered. “Awsome! “He said. 

She looked at him. He smilled.”what? ” he asked.  “You are happy aren’t you? ” she asked. He smiled. “I am happy.  I am very happy. Are you ab?” he asked.  She hugged him. “Verry!” she said. 

That saterday they met up just before her church.  He wore a pollo shirt and jeens. She wore a green shirt and denim skirt and sandles. He took her hand and they got in his car. 

They arived and went to the sanctuary.  She talked to friends of hers. She introduced him as her boyfriend.  He was starting to get use to that. He stil felt out of place but hopped that would subside.

He could tell that abby realy liked the worship time. She loved to sing. She loved contemporary style praise and worship music. She was dancing and rasing her hands. He did sing along but did not raise his hands.  

He liked the messege from the pastor.it was a totaly different culture.this was verry foregn to him.he felt that she probably felt the same way. 

She was happy he came. She loved that they were becoming more of a part of eachother’s world. 

That Sunday the pastor found him.”andrew can i talk to you for a minute?” the pastor asked. “Sure!” he said. They went to his office. “Anne’s dad is going to have knee surgery. He is going to be layed up for a couple of months.  All of her siblings have moved away. Her mom is in a nursing home. Anne is going to care for him. That means going to Missouri.  Neither one of us wants to be apart. Do the kids stay hear or go with her? I am thinking about going with her. I talk to the deacons. I would like to have an acting pastor while i am gone. I have not totaly made a decision.  Would you be intetested in asuming the pastoral duties including preaching while i am gone?” he asked.

“Yes i am. I have been considering getting back on the pastoral tract. ” he admited. “I thought you had. It is time to get back on the satle. “Pastor jeff bail said. “If you decide to take a leave i am wiling to help out. ” he said “excellent.  The deacons are all on bored. I am going to talk it over with ann and pray over it. We will keep in touch. ” bail told him. 

End of part 10

Next up 

Andrew works on getting back to preperation for full time ministry. A chance meeting between jacky and abby creates more friction between her and andrew. 

Wedding party part six 

Four days until the wedding

With the progress made the day before,tracy decided to begin work at nine. Tracy was up at 7:30. She put the cofee on. 

Amber heared someone up. She gaused that it was probably tracy. She came down stairs. “Morning sunshine!” tracy said. ” i knew that you weref up. ” amber said.

“So # thoughts are swiming in my head. I am surprised i got this much sleep. ” tracy said. Amber laughed. 

“This is all going to come together trace. It is going to be a great wedding. One you will never forget!” amber assured her. 

 “You had better keep in touch amber. ” tracy said. “I mwill.” amber said. “He cares abourt you. ” Tracy said. “I know he does. Odd he did not like me for the longest time. ” amber said.

“He is a private person. He always has been. He is not one to wear his heart on his sleve. You are special to him. There is nothing he would not do for you. ” tracy said. “I have never doubted that. ” she said. 

Matt woke up at 7:30.  He took a shower and got ready to go. He got in his car.  He headed to the home of his parents.  He parked and went inside. 

He went inside. “You dont look awake? ” tracy commented. ” i am noy but i am getting there. ” he said. He got a cup of cofee. 

After a while Steven arived. They had breakfast then got ready to go to the church. They arived at the church.  

Tracy took inventory of what was done the day before.  She looked at what was accomplished the day before in order to plan where to go from there.  

She then went upstairs and looked at the sanctuary.  She looked at her floor plan. She looked at the posters and decorations that had already been made. He started to make a list of things to get done. 

Tracy called a meeting. Everyone met in the foyer. “Are you alowed to call a meeting tracy?”matt asked. “Probably not. Can you call a meeting? “She asked. He laughed. “Ok people!  Gather around. ” he said.

All of a suden matt got weapy. He remebered his dad calling family meetings. The meetings were usualy getting ready to go somewhere manny times on vacation. He tried to hide the tears. He did not wear his heart on his sleve. 

“Ok so tracy what is the plan for the day? ” he asked her. “Ok i want the guys to work on the latice work for down stairs felowship hall. We will continue making decorations.  ” tracy said. 

Amber walked with matt as he walked outside.  “You ok matt?” she asked.  “Yea im ok. I thought about a phrase dad used to use. It took me by surprise.  Its bound to happen this week. ” he said.

They neared the door. She hugged him. “Hold on to those memories. Dont forget the good times. ” she told him. “Ok! I wont. Thank you. ” he told her. She huged him tightly before letting him go. “I will talk to you later.” she said. “You got it. ” he said. 

Steve and matt got to work on the lattice work. They got to work making tracy’s dream a reality. They set up what would be a gate around the tables in the fellowship hall. There would be a gazebo like structure near the end table. This was where the wedding party would come in. They could have there pictures taken there. 

They got several structure built and then would bring it down stairs. From there they would set up and interconnected.  The gazebo was the hard part. The platform was set up first downstairs. Then the rest was built outside and then brought downstairs. This kept the guys buisy. 

The girls worked on decorations and posters and sutch. The kid’s mom arived with there younger siblings at ten. They worked on various decorations and the like. 

Down stairs things were really shaping up. Amber came downstairs to him. “Matt is toasted cheese sandwitches and tomato soup ok?” amber asked. “Yea thats great. ” he answered. ” great. We are getting ready to lunch. This looks really good. Tracy will love it. ” she said.

“You like it?” he asked. “I really do. You are going to have to work on ny wedding. ” amber said. “We will see about that. Do i have to pray over it first?” he asked. “Yes it must be blesed with tounges. ” she said. ” oy veh!” he said. She laughed. “I will be back when lunch is ready! ” she said. 

He found himself tensing up. The thought of her getting maried. He knew she would get maried. She would be a great wife. He was fully confident that she would get maried.he just did not want to think about. 

Eventually she would meet someone. Probably penticostal. Probably someone at the college she worked at.he got sad. He wanted her to marry him. He went from disliking her to becoming cordial but stil dissent.  From cordial to friendly acquaintance.  Then they became friends. He develped a crush on her but he never mentioned it. They had moved on. She was on the other side of the united states with a life of her own. Things were different now. He would have to accept that.

What he did not know was that she was thinking the same thing. At first he was simply tracy’s brother. She did not give him much thought. Then she realized that he did not like her. Then they came at peace with eachother. Then they became friends in time. She liked him. She never told him. 

She did not the thought of marying someone that was not him. She equally did not like the idea of him marying someone else. She dreaded going back west. This was her home. She knew that she would head back to the west coast after the wedding.

When dinner was ready,  amber got everyone.  They eat in the halway.  Amber sat next to matt of course. “Hi there!” she said. He laughed.  ” hi amber!” he said. 

“Things are coming together.  ” amber said. “They are realy are. I am glad that is. ” he said. “We will all be tired out come sunday but thats ok. ” she said.  “I have a feeling that is true. ” she said. 

After dinner the guys got back to work on the latice work. The girls continued to work on decorations. 

Tracy went down stairs to look at the felowship hall. She started to cry. “This is beutifull! I love it.  Steve, matt thank you. ” she said. 

They stoped at 5:00. Everyone was tired. They went back to the house. They had supper. 

“What the plan for tomorrow? ” there brother phil asked. “I want to get the felowship hall finished and the halway. We probably should quit at 4:30 . church is at 6:00. ” tracy said. They all agreed. 

“Thursday will be sanctuary.  Friday the caterers arive. We finish everything then rehersial. ” tracy said.”what time are we starting? “Matt asked. ” we will push for eight.  Come by hear at 7:30 cofee will be on at seven. ” Tracy said.

Matt said his goodnight to everyone. Amber walked him to his car. This had become a tradition for them during the week. She hugged him. She watched him leave.

Amber went over to the family matriark. “Hi amber! ” she said. “So how are you doing with all of this?” amber asked. “Its hard. Tracy is my oldest daughter. Seems like yesterday she was a baby.  I am not ready for her to be all grown up. I miss there farther.  I has started to move on but this has brought it all back. ” she said.

“I know it must be hard.  “Amber said.”it is. It would have been any ways. Without him it is hard. I keep looking for him. ” she said. “Im sorry. ” amber said. “Thank you . ” she said.

After a while everyone started to go to bed. The wedding was nearing. They had a lot to do but they had done alot. 

End of part six. 

Next up 

The family works on finising up the felowship hall.  There is the wendsday service. Things continue to develop between matt and amber. 

Panic attack part 11

When jack first met Kristen, something was stired in him. He could not understand it. It was so unlike him. He could not ignore it.  At first it seemed that she did not feel the same way about him. 

Kristin and him decided to date. The more time he spent with her the more he felt for her. She slowly let down her gaurd.  She sowly trusted him more and more. He saw that. 

Then there was the day she helped him change the oil on his car.  That was a turning point . he saw what maried life with her would be like. They would laugh together smile together, work together,  pray together and yes cry together.  They would do it togerher. 

He loved being with her. Even disagreements would not doom there relationships.  He felt positive while driving home from her house.

He had a colection of hyims on cd from a Christian college on his way home. He parked the car. He walked to the door. He walked inside. 

 Most of the family stared at him. “Oh no! She posted pics of us changing the oil didn’t she?” he asked. “Yes. She did.  You two are really cute.” his mom said. 

“You did not want her to post them?” hsis dad asked. “No its fine. It was a little embarrassing.  It was fun. We had a good time interacting with eachother while doing it. ” jack admitted. 

“You got a lot of likes. Including from both sets if grandparents.” his mom said ” papa Grammy, grampa and nana saw it?” he asked.” yes they did.” his Merissa answered. His siblings laughed.

He thought to himself, “man i am realy going to get teased. ” he figuted he was never going to be able to live this one down. 

She started to trust him. She got closer and closer to him.she did start to let her gaurd down. She grew more wiling to be vannerable around him. She found him to be sweet. He was kind and caring. 

She had no idea what he would be like. The more she got to know him the more she liked.  She looked forward to getting to know him more. 

At the midweek service he saw her. His eyies met hers. Her face went from serious to smiling. “Hi babe!” she said. He smiled . “hi. ” he said.

They sat down. “You got raked over the coals? ” she remarked. “Yes i know. I would not change it for anything. It was a good bonding experience.” he said. “Told you ” she said.

They decided to get together on saterday. They met in a park for a picnic. She made a. Bunch of chicken salid sandwitch and desert. She wore a brown sweter and back and gray skirt and flip flops. 

“Beautiful day today? ” he remarked.”it really is. Not a single cloud in the sky. Sun is shinning.  ” she said. 

After dinner they played several rounds of volley ball. ” i was on the high schhol soccer team. ” she said. “Did you go to public school?” he asked. “I did. I went to a Christian school until secvond grade then went to public school. ” she said.

“I was home schooled. ” he said. “All 12 years?” she asked. “All 12 years!” he answered.  ” i cant imagine never going to a formal school. ” she said.”i cant imagane going to a formal school. “He answered. ” i gues that makes sence. ” she said. 

“You played sports?”he asked. “I loved playing sports. Did you play sports at bible college?” she asked. “Intermural.  We have sports teams that play other schools and tournaments but i never played on them. ” he said.

“Not a sports guy?” she asked. “Oh i love sports. I like playing sports. Playing professional sports is probably not in my future. I will stick to pastoring. ” he said. “Ok.” she said. 

“I do enjoy shooting a basketball or hiting a voley ball etc. I find it therapeutic.  ” he said. “I do too. When i got out of the hospital , i spent houers outside playing basketball.  Ash and mom were woried about me . it was my way to coupe. ” she said. “Understandible. There is no right or wrong way to mourn or coupe or heal. Everyone does it differently. “He said. 

“I stil have healing to do. ” she said. He took her hand. “I know. I am hear for you. Always. Whatever you need whenever.  I am hear for you. I want to help you heal. “He assured her. “Thank you. “She squeezed   his hand. He squeezed it back. 

“Its hard to talk to my mom and sisters. They worry about me. They want me to be ok. They worry if im not totaly alright i will become realy depressed or a danger to myself. The truth is im not ok but im ok. If that makes sense.  ” she said. 

“It does make perfect sense. Its there job to worry. You can understand why. You can always talk to me. I promise i wont judge. I want you to feel free to be honest. ” he said. 

“I want to be ok. I really do. ” he said.”i know. You dont have to be strong. You dont have to be ok. We can work though this together.  ” he told her. “Ok. “She said.

They got talking about various things.she just stoped. She got frantic. “You ok kriss?” he asked. “What is the date today?” she asked. “May 27th. “He said. ” oh no. I got to go home. ” she said. “What is it?” he asked.

“Today is the day that dad died. I just want to be alone. ” she said.   “Ok.”he said. They packed everything up. They put everything away in the car. 

She did not say mutch on the way home. He pulled in her driveway.she had just shut down. “Call me when you want to. ” he said. “Ok” she said.she then went inside. 

He drove home.  ” your home early. “His mom said. “She wanted to get home.   “He said.  “You ok son?” his dad asked. “Yea im fine.  ” he said. 

He felt like they were nearing a breakthrough.  Then it was all over. He had no idea how to deal with it or what to do now.

End of part 11

Wedding party part five

Five days till wedding.  

Matt’s alarm went off at 7:00. He got up and hit the shower. He got dressed . he wore jeens and a blue t shirt. He put on a blue coat. He headed out. It was a little chilly but it he figured it would warm up. 

Steven ,tracy’s fiencae got up. He lived near the home of tracy’s mom. He woke up with the alarm. He got dressed and headed out. 

Tracy had been awake sence five. She finaly got up. She found it hard to get to sleep and to stay asleep.  She wanted to really start getting ready for the wedding.  

Amber heard that someone was up. She figured that it was tracy. She decided to get up. They had been up for a bit when everyone arived. 

Matt was the first to arive. He parked and came in. “Morning matt!” Tracy said. He hugged his sister.  He saw amber. “Hi matt.” amber said. “Hi amber. ” he said. 

He got a cup of cofee. “I am not quite awake yet. I am getting there. ” matt said. ” hury up and wake up. I plan on putting you to work today and then some!” Tracy said. ” i figured.  I will be awake by the time we get to the church. ” he assured her. Tracy laughed. “I dont need your mind just your brute strength. ” Tracy said. “Understood. ” matt said. 

Steven came in. Steve hugged tracy. They held hands and hugged but did not kiss even on the cheeks. “I got to warn you steve, your fiencae is quite an authoritarian! ” matt said. 

“Only during weading preperation. ” she said. “Then she will return to sweet Tracy.  “Amber said. “I am always sweet. I just to make sure everything is going smoothly.  ” tracy said. Everyone laughed. 

Tracy and amber and two other sisters got to work on breakfast. There mom was the last to get up. She walk downstairs with there youngest sister. She was three years old.she was born just before her dad died. 

“Hi mom. ” matt said. ” hi Matthew.  ” Katherine lauthen said. “The girls are making breakfast. I am thinking it might be our last meal. ” matt said. “She is planing to get a lot done today. I think she will be determined to get her to do list done. ” the mom said. “We will get there. I want to see us getting the tasks for today done as well. ” matt said. 

He could tell that things were hard for his mom. She was stil fairly young. She was only in her late 40s.she stil had young kids. The three youngest were 8, 5 and 3. 

“Getting ready for a weading is always chaotic. I know myine was. I remember thinking the Monday before that we would never het everything done. The weading was great. It was everything i wanted it to be and more.  I know that that will be the case hear. This will be something that tracy and steven will never forget!” her mom said.  ” i hope so. I am. Going to do all i can to make it happen. ” he said.

“You have always been a good brother.  I know you will. I have full confidence in you Matthew.  I know tracy does as well. ” she said. “I want Tracy to have a great wedding.  I realy do. ” he told his mom. 

His sister marissa anounced that it was time for breakfast. They all went into the kitchen. Matt prayed for the food. Amber sat next to him. 

After breakfast they got ready to leave for the church. Mat’ two youngest brothers wanted to go with him.”can i ride with you Matt? ” amber asked. “Sure. I got two really silly boys ” he said. She chuckled. “Thats fine!” she said. 

She got in. “Hear it begins!” she said. “Its going to be a wild week. I have a feeling we will be all tired out before the wedding.  ” she said. ” we will make it. ” she said.

The car parked at the church. Everyone got out. Tracy had everyone gather in the halway. ” ok! Sense the auditorium is going to be used for the Wednesday midweek, we are going to focus on the downstairs. Upstairs rooms will be used for prayer time. We will start on the sancuary after the mid week service. We can work on decoration just not put them up. I realy want to go wild on downstairs. Mom ,amber marissa and i will work on the decorations. The guys wil be the muscles. ” she said. 

The girls got working on the decorations. While tracy got the guys together. She took out a peace of paper and laid it on a table. “Ok. I am thinking we will start with the tables we have and then get the others table. This is how i want it set up.  ” tracy said.

Tracy left to talk base with the ladies. They got right to work. Matt started to move tables.  He and steve were moving tables. They got the tables set up first.  They moved the existing tables.

When they used all of the tables in the fellowship hall they then got tables from other rooms. they got the nearest rooms first. They did not worry about chairs at first just the tables. 

“Nervous? ” matt asked steve. “A little bit. Even a mounth ago it seemed so far away. Now it is almost hear yet at the same time it still feels a long way off. It still does not feel real quite yet. I am excited. ” steve said. “It is all going to come together.  ” he said. 

After they got the tables set up,they orginiazed them acording to her floor plan. Then they brought in chairs using an old fashioned chair doly. They started setting up the chairs. 

Amber came down stairs. ” Steve we need a life verse for a poster . “she said.”i have several i like. “Steve said.”pick one.mrs green wants to make a postet of your life verses..she picked proverbs 3:5 and 6. ” amber said.”hebrews 10:39 ‘we are not of those who fall back unto perdition’s but those who believe to the saving of the soul. “Steve said. “Ok thanks.”she said.

A little while later,amber came back. “Mrs green sais she wants a verse thar is more positive. ” she said.”it is very posisitve. “Steve said. “Do you have a different life verse?”she asked. “Romans 1:17,”herin the righteousness of God is revealed form faith to faith as is written the just shal live by faith. “He said. “Ok that should work.” amber said.

“What would have happened if i picked,’our God is a consuming fire!'”?he asked. “I shutter to think. Mrs green is a dear saint of the lord. She does have her own ways of doing things. ” he told steve. He laughed.

After a while,tracy came back. “Hey matty can you take down everything hanging uo to make room for yhe decorations? “Tracy asked. “Everything ?” he asked. “Except for electtical stuff. “She said. “Ok.”he agreed.

A little while amber came back..”steve mrs green was wondering if she she can just put as it is writen the just shal live by faith?”she asked. “I really like the whole verse. What about context? Ok its fine”he said. “Thank you.”she said. 

“Hey matt would you be offended if we eloped?”steve asked. “I told you that was the way to go. “Matt said. 

After a while tracy went to matt.”matt mrs green wants to put wedding verses like he that finds a wife finds a good thing ‘i would rather not have those kibd of verses. Its seams buisy. I dont want an overloud. The wedding itaelf is the mesege not alll the ascetics.  “Tracy said. “Its your wedding trace. You can have it how you like. ” he said. “You will back me up on this?” she asked. “Of course.”he said. “Thank you.”tracy said. 

“Explain to her that you want to keep it bear bones. Simple.  ” he said. “I will. ” she said. 

“Tracy is particuler. “Steve said. “She can be. It usually certain things. She picks her battles.  When she cares about something, she realy  cares about it. ” he told him. “Understood. ” steve said.

They got everything down. They started putting things up. Things were already shaping up. People came in and out. 

Amber came in. “Matty i need sandwich order.  Eag salid or tuna?”she asked. “Tuna. “He said.”Tracy was prety sure you wouls ssay tunna. One or two?”she asked. “Two please. “He answered. “You got it. Steve tuna or eag?”amber asked. “Eag salid just one please.” he said. “You got it” she said. 

Everyone eat upstairs in the entry way. Matt prayed for the food.he sat next to amber. ” this is starting to take shape.”amber said. “It is. This is the first wedding at the church in ten years.  Its time. Hopfully it wont be another ten years before anpther one. ” he said. 

“It is alot of work. We have got a lot accomplished. We got a lot more time today. I think we atr ptety much on shedule. “Amber said. “I thought we were.  ” he said.

Steve went over to tracy. They hugged.  “I missed you.” steve said. “I missed you. I am sorry wr have not really goten to hang out. I havr kunda micromanaged everything.”she said.”its fine. We will plenty of time after the wedding. I figured it would be chaotic and hetic. Its fine. ” he said.  

“Are you sure hunnie?”tracy asked. “Im sure. ” he said. “I did not meen to ignore you. You giys are doing a really good job. Everyone is. I am happy how it is coming along. “Tracy said.”im glad.”he said.

The girls worked on decorations. Even the little kids helped albiet supervised. The men did the grunt work. They hung things up. They hung steramers and posters.

There mom decided to bring the kids home for a nap after two pm. At five they decided to call it a day. They accomplished quite a bit. They were just about right on shedule. 

Tracy just looked around the felowship hall. “This is great. Thanks everyone.”she said. 

Tracy went over to matt. She hugged him. “Thank you for your help today. You went above and beyound. Please don’t run of steam. I need for five more days. ” shr said.  “I understand.  I promise i wont.”he said. 

“Are you coming to the house?” amber asked. “Yes that is my plan. I plan on staying for supper. Tracy wants to play monopoly.  ” matt said. “Good i was hoping we could visit for a bit. I have not got to see you much today. Not really.”she said. “I know what you meen. Sounds like fun.” he said. 

“Unless your sick of me!” she said. “Not posible. “He said.” i really hope that’s true. “She told her. ” i am sure its is.” he answered.  

They had dinner at the home of the family matriark.  After the youngest kids requested amber read them a bed time story before they went to bed. 

“Amber realy is one of our family isn’t she?” he asked his mom. “She realy is. You know after this wedding we might never see her again. ” his mom said. 

His jaw dropped.  He had not realy considered that. “You realy think we might not see her again?” he asked. “Well she is living on the west coast. It sounds like her life seams to be centeted there. Its possible we might not. ” she said. 

He hated not ever seing her again. It pained him. He knew that was a posibility. She was heavily involved in the church and school there. She could advanced there. She could even meet someone and get maried and raise a family. 

They played a few games of minopoly. Then he and amber were sitting in the living room. “Do you think that after this week we might never see eachother again. Your life is bassed on the west coast now?” he remarked.

“I am not going to just abandon you.you are my family. I wont be a stranger.  “She assured him. “Good! As much as i tease you,i do really like you. I would hate to never see you again. ” he told her.  

“I feel the same way. Your family is just as much my family. I promise i wont be a stranger. ” she said. “Good.” he said.

They agreed to meet up at the house at eight and start things at nine at the church. Matt went to his house. He was tired and fell asleep.  

End of part five

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Progress continues to be made in wedding preperations, things happen between amber and matt.