End of sorrow part four

Andrew went home that night he felt tense. He felt strage. He felt a thousand different emotion. He went from happy to sad to regret to everything in between. He did not know what to do. He was very divided. 

Could he really move on? Could he forget leane. Did dating abby and mayby even marying her ment that he had to forget leane. He felt like he spent a life time with her. Even though she was gone, he had his memories.  Though he never maried her he felt like he had. If he maried abby, he would have to abandon all of it. Abby would be his wife. He wanted to hold on to his memories of leane. He could not if he maried her.

He was havily divided. He would keep turning in facebook. He kept staring at the pictures of him and abby. He was happy. Even at the Christian rock concert he was happy. He had found memories of that event. He had to turn off the screen. 

He ended up looking at a picture of him and leane. He looled at a photo album of them. It was going to leed into there early days of mariege. Od course that never happened. He felt so sad. He had to give that up as well. 

Abby went to her house. She was so sad. She was in love with him. She had been for a while. She had such a good day. She knew she had pushed so Manny of his buttons.  She realy cared about him. She had no idea what to do now. 

He was afraid to go to church the  next day. He knew he was going to be pummeled with questiones. He figured that he would be asked a milion questions even before he went to the newsboys concert.he would get more questions now. 

He knew that people cared about him. He kept to himself. He did not talk about his feelings but this was the church he had attended sense he was young. They watched him grow up. He wanted to figure this out on his own.

He wanted to figure this out all on his own. He had no idea how to do that. He considered playing hookie. He was teaching an adult high school and there was probably no one who could take over at such short notice. He would go. 

He saw his mom and dad as he went inside.”hi.” he said. “So when do we get to meet abby?” his mom asked.” i am not sure yet. ” he said.”we are looking froward to meeting her. ” his dad told him.

“Well we are just friends.  I am not sure it is going to materialize into anything.  “He said. 

“You dont like her as something more then feiends?”his mom asked.”i dont know. It seams like it is too soon. ” he said. ” we would love to meet her. ” his dad said.

He got a million questiones. From how he met her to does it see it leading to mariege. He did not say much. He dodged as much as he could but answered it a little bit. 

“Andy how was the concert?” pastor davis asked. “Not you too. It was good well the concert not so much.  I enjoyed the conpony. ” he said. 

“You dont to mourn foever. You are young.no one expects you to stay single foever. Its ok to move on. ” the pastor said. “I know that. I envision that one day i will date again. I can even imagine getting maried.  Not now not yet. “He said.

“You only dated leane?”he asked.”yes. I did not plan it that way. Before we knew it we had been a couple basicaly for six years.” he said 

“Are you ok if abby maries someone else? ” he asked.  “I would like to say no but it would brother me. I could probably ajust. ” andrew said. “I would consider that long and hard. ” he said.

He drove home after church.  Of course abby got home at the same time he did. She wore jeens not a skirt.  He did not know if there was any significance to her wardrobe choice. 

“Hello. ” he said “hi andy.did you get a thousand questiones? ” she asked. “And thensome. Did you?”andrew asked. “I did.they arw a bit disturbed that you dont believe in speaking in tounges. They are also disrurbed by your view on eternal secuity. By the way i believe in eternal secuity.” she said. 

“That’s good to know. Otherwise you and i would probably get into a heated debate. ” he told her.  “I could see that. “She said. 

“Well i should be getting inside. “He told her. “Alright. Have a good afternoon.  ” she said.  They went there seperate ways.they went inside there homes. 

He felt prety good most of the day. He loved teaching Sunday school. The sermon in the morning had been very good.  Now he felt agitated. Abby made him feel a thousand different things. 

She loved being with him.when she was with him she did not want to be any where else.now that he was gone she missed him.what was odd was that he was right there.  He was next door. 

She considered texting him.she considered asking him to join her outside. SHe did not do that.she decided that that was not a good idea. She stayed inside.  

She saw him leave for evening service. She waited for him to leave before she got in her car. Then when he was gone she went to her car. She headed off to her church. 

The service went good. He enjoyed the message.  The question about abby persisted.  People wondered when they would get to meet her. He dodged the questions mostly. He was uncomfortable with them but he hid that fact. 

After the service. “So did you talk to abby today?” his mom asked.”briefly. ” he answered.  “Planning any more ccm concerts?”his dad asked. “No i am not. ” he said. Of course he did not plan the last one. “You should bring her to some of our churches function.” she said. “She says she is willing to go. ” he said. “Invite her. Everyone wants to meet her. ” she said. “Perhaps i will. ” he said. 

Abby stayed after church.  She played basketball a bit. She talked to friends in the parking lot. She tried to avoid going home. She wanted to avoid seing him. 

She finaly headed home. She figured he would be long home by now. She just wanted a break. She wanted time to sort all this out. She drove slowly. She was in no hury to get home. She puled in to her drive way. His car was parked. She parked in her spot. 

She got out of the car. She walked to her apartment.  She got inside. She thought to herself that she had made it. She realized how silly she was. 

She was not sure how to proceed.  She really liked him. She wanted to one day marry him. He was clearly not interested right now. She was not sure if he would ever be. She was prety sure that he did not think that he would ever be ready.  She just wanted some time apart from him. 

Right now it looked like nothing was going to happen between those two. Things often changed. Perhaps it would hear. Time would tell. 

End of part four. 

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