Panic attack part four

Jack had wanted to talk to the new young lady at his church. Her family asked him not to. He hounored there request.  She seemed to want to talk to him. He did not understand it. 

He decided that nothing would come of this. He decided not to persue anything with her any further. He decided to focus on his ministry. He tried to ignore any thing else. 

He did not ignore her but he did not go out out if his way to see her. He did not go out of his way not to talk to her. He barely saw her. He had moved on. 

At church one sunday, the pastor made an announcement.  “Mrs grener invites everyone to an open house at her home on friday. Things will start at 6:00 with dinner and time of fellowship. ” the pastor said.

Jack did not intend to come to the open house. It was too akward. He was not sure that he would be welcome.  He decided that it would be best not to come. It was too complicated. He decided not to attend.  He did not realy have the desire to go. 

“I am not going to the grener’s open house. ” he told his parents.  “Why not?” his dad asked.”it would be a bit awkward. I would just prefer not to attend.it would be weird. I think it would be best for me not to go. ” he told his parents.

“You cant avoid kristin foever. The greners are becoming more and more part of the church. As an assistant pastor you need to have a good relationship with everyone in the church. That includes kristin.  She is a sister in christ. “His farther told him. “I know that.  I think i can still keep my distence. I would perfer to mantain a certain level of detachment.  ” he told him.

“You sure.  I think that most of the church will be there.  Your absence might be conspicuous.  “His mom said. “I realize that but i am really not comfortible going. I fell i need to not attend. ” he said 

“It is your decison but i realy think that you should go. It is up to you.”his dad told him.   

He was determined not to go. He really did not want to go. He knew it might look bad for him. He made the decision not to go. He would stick to that determination.  

His family got ready.”you sure you wont come?” his mom asked.  ” i am sure.” he told her. They said ok.then they left the house. He said his goodbye to his family.  

Kristin was nervous about the open house. She was also excited at the same time. She was looking froward to the event at the same time. The whole family enjoyed being hospitable.  The family had used to entertain missionary ,special speakers and those in the church. That was a while ago. 

Kristin had really gottin into it. She had gone all all out. She had fun doing it. Ashly saw that for a few short secconds,Kristin was the old her. 

People started to arive. Some brought food or deserts.  They helped out. Then Kristin saw the rayburns arive. She did not see jack.

She said hello to the pastor and his family. “Hello pastor and raybur s!”she said. They said hello. “I am glad you could make it.”she told them. “We have been looking forward to it. “Mrs. Rayburn said. 

“Is jack hear?” she asked. “He could not make it. ” the pastor said. “Oh i am sory to hear that. ” she said.”i will tell him you asked about him. “Mrs. Rayburn told her. “Thank you. Please do. “Kristin said. 

Kristin tried not to be sad. She really wanted him to come. It had never occured to her that he might not come. By the look of things he was the only no show. In her mind he was the guest of hornor.

She was hoping to have an event where they would just bump into eqchother. She wanted to ease into things with him. That was not going to happen.

She did not understand that there was a misunderstanding between them. The truth was that she wanted to go slow. She needed to ajust. 

He saw it differently.  He thought that she was kind of interested in him. He thought that her mom and sister were dead set against it. She went back and forth on the issue. He thought that she wavered on the issue.  He just wanted to move on.he no longer saw a relationship with her as a viable option. He wanted that door closed.that was why he did not come. 

Kristin was disappointed.  She made the best of it. She knew it could stil be a good time. It was an oportunity to become more part of the church. Before mr. Grener died,they were very active in the church they attended. They had not sence then.  

People were lauthing. There were good convrrsations.  People were enjoying themselves.  The greners were happy about that. 

Kristin got absorbed into the night that she forgot about jack. When everyone left and all the post party cleen up was over,she was sad. She tried not to be. 

Her plan was she would sit next to him. She would engage him in iddle chit chat. Then they would live hapily ever after.  Just like that.  That was not how it was. Not at all. Nothing ever goes quite as planed. In this case it certainly did not.  

“Kristin asked about you.” his mom told jack.  Jack was quite taken a back. “She did? ” he asked. “She seemed disappointed that you were not there.  “His mom told her.  He was surprised. “Oh ! I am a bit surprised.  I stil think it was for the best that i did not come. “He said. “It was a lot of fun. You really should have come. ” his dad said. 

He did not understand her. She seemed to be sending mixed signals. He did not have all the facts.  He drew his own conclusions . his conclusions were way off. There was no way he could know the truth. 

“Why did he not come? ” Kristin asked her mom. “He stil thinks he is suposed to avoid you. “Her mom said.  “I have talked to him sense that. “Kristin said. “Yes but you then ran away.” ashly said.  “Oh yea! ” kristin said in response. 

 “Are you ready to let him in? To really let him in? Are you ready to invite him to court you?”her mom asked. ” yes i think i am.” Kristin said. 

“Are you sure?”ashly asked.ashly became very protective of her sister after the car crash. “Yes i am sure ash. “Kristin said. “You will need to ecplain the situation to him. He may not want to pursue a relationship with her.anxiety, panic attacks and post traumatic stress are hard to deal with.it could be too much for him. He may not be interested.  You have to take that into account. ” she told her daughter.  ” i know that. I know that is a posibility. Given what happened today that is the most likly of events. ” her mom said.  

“If you want i woll personaly invite him to dinner. I wil sit down with him before dinner. You have to be perpaired that he may say no. This may not go the way you want it to. ” her mom said. 

“I know that.  I want to do this!” she told her. “Ok i will call him. “She said.  

End of part four. 

Next up. 

Jack agress to come over to the greners. He and Kristin finaly talk. 

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