Sorow is something experienced by everyone everywhere. Sorow does not discriminate. There will always be sorow even in the 24th cencuary in the final frontier.
This is captain eric lewis of the federation starship Minnesota. A few years ago his wife was killed during the federation war with the dominion. He has a two young children. Today marks four years sense her death.
Captain lewis woke up with his alarm. The computor vioce staeted out soft and got louder. It would not stop until he deactivated it.he felt weird and did bot not why. Then it ocured to him.
The captain entered the bridge. “Captain on the bridge! ” an officer at a reer station said. He said,’as you were’in a slightly anoyed tone. The bridge crew tried to ignore it.
A vulcan who was the science officer took note of it. She scaned his service record and saw what was troubling him. She made a mental note of it.
The first officer gave him a report of events going on throughout the day.the exo noticed that the captain seemeitto be anoyed by the endless recitation of the events.”it is really necessary to go into mundane details. “The captain said.
“Dont you want to know what is going on the ship? “The first officer asked. “Pertinent data don.i dont need to know the bowel movement of the crew. A nazaka warship in the reigion yes.a super nova about to hir us yes.a slug making its way though the sector no. Is that clear?”the captain asked. “Yes sir. Quite clear!” first officer makenzi said. ” alright. Anything else?”he said in a slightly belligerent tone. “No sir. ” he answered in a tapid tone.
The captain was usually even keeled.he was laid back. Even in hostle situation he was never on throughout edge. Today was different. The crew was not accustomed to this. The crew had no idea how to act around him.
The captain sat down. All day every interaction between the captain and crew went like this. It was very tense. The crew acted like they were walking on egg shells.
“Captain! “The tactical officer said. The captain was lost in thought. The tactical officer tried again. Then he snaped at the officer. “What?” the captain asked in an anoyed tone. “Sir i have a new secuity report from star fleet security. ” the tactical officer said.
“Can you upload it to my council?”the captain asked. “Aye sir.” the nervous officer reported. The captain receved it.he looked over the report.
“May i speak to you in private? ” the first officer asked. “Of course.commander omron you have the bridge. ” the captain said.the captain got up from the comanr chair. The exo followed him. The bolion officer sat at the command chair. The two entered the ready room.the door closed.
“Is there a problem? You have been uncharacteristicly irritable? ” don mekenzi asked. “No i am fine.”he said. “This is not like you. You are bit touchy. This is alarming behavior sir. ” the first officer said.”your probably right don. I will tone it down. ” he said.
“Ok! Thank you sir.” the first officer said. He nodded.the first officer left the office. He sat down at his chair. He breathed a loud sigh. He put his head in his hand.
The chime rang. The captain did not want to have any visitors. He was not sure he could turn that person away without arousing questiones he desperately did not want asked.Reluctantly he agreed to let them in. “Come in!” the captain said.
The door opened. It was lt. Losera the vulcan science officer who entered. ” lt, i was not expecting you. ” the captain said.
“I know why you are out of sorts today. ” she said. “Did you come to lecture me on how i am behaving in an irarional ilogical manner? ” the captain asked.
“No i am not hear to lecture you! “She said. “Then why are you hear?”he asked. “I thought you might want someone to talk to. “She said. “This ship has a counseling staf. Why would i chose to confer with a vulcan who cannot identify with what i am experiencing? “He asked.
“You are mistaken. I am non emotional. That is not the same as unsympathetic. Vulcan may not react to loss as humans do but that does not meen that we are not effected by such a loss. “She said.
“I Dont want to think about it! I want to be normal again.i want to be back to being me. “He said.”this loss has changed you. That is unavoidable. You can adapt to those changes. You cannot Avoid the loss. You have to confront it. Ignoring it will hardly cause it to go away. ” she said.
“I know your right. I Dont like it but i know your right. I will try to do that. Its been four years. “He said.”some things take longer then usual. ” she said.
“How does a vulcan deal with loss?”the captain asked.”while we do not mourn in an enotional way as humans do,we do not deny that the loss has occured. We atempt to pass it. Sometimes that is more difficult then other times. The loss of the intrepid with all hands was troubling even for vulcans. A vulcan officer on the grisson could not handle it.” she said.”i know the account. I dont want to be alright. I Dont want to move on but i also want to. I want to move on. ” the captain said.
“That makes sense!”she said. “It does! ” he said. “Yes it does. It is natural for you to want to move on but to also to not move on. Particularly now after it has been four years. ” she said.”i thought i was ok. I finaly was starting to come to terms with it but im not. Not at all. I am as lost as i ever was. ” he told her.
“Lost but not alone. ” she told him. “Why do you care? Is it mearly because you want a compotent commander at the con?”he asked. “You should know me better then that eric. My concern is genuine not for any other reason. Why can you not trust me?”she asked.
“I do trust you losera. ” he said. “I thought you did. You can. I am not hear as a star fleet officer. I am hear as your friend. “She said.” i appreciate that lt,uh losera. “He said.
He huged her. He realized what hw was doing was inappropriate. He started to move on. She prevented him for doing so.”it is fine.” she said. He held on to her.”thank you. ” he said.
The rest of the day he was better. He was glad when his shift ended. He turned over the ship to the night shift duty officer. He was happy to go home. He picked up his kids from the ships day care. He took them to his qurters.
A couple mounths later.
He saw losera in the turbo lift.he entered. “Computer hold the lift. “He said. The lift stoped. “Losera. May i ask you something off the record?”he asked. “If course eric.” she said. “Do you want to go out sometime?”he asked.”are you asking me out in a date?” she asked.”i am. ” he said. “I would be agreed to that. ” she said
“Very good.”the end.